Not to be mentally ill rn, but Illi Mcmillin is the kind of girl you meet at the ward and get painfully attached to.
She’s been there longer than anyone else. No one really knows why she’s there. Her chart is colour-coded and thick, her med list is a novel, and the staff calls her “complex.” Patients whisper theories, but she never confirms, changing the subject to Houdini's water torture cell or the best way to fold a paper crane.
The day you're admitted, she watches you from the common room, pretending to read a copy of Rue Morgue while her eyes flick up every few seconds.
That night, she sits across from you at dinner without asking.
“The meatloaf gave someone in unit C food poisoning last week,” she says flatly. “Doing you a favor.”
She quietly adopts you, teaching you little things. How to negotiate dosages getting lowered, which nurses are charmed by compliments so they'll write "good progress" in your file, how to fake cry your way out of group time.
“You don’t fight them,” she explains, very matter-of-fact. “That’s stupid. You make them think you’re no longer a problem. Then you get room to breathe.”
She volunteers for every art therapy session — not because she cares about the meditative experience of watercolour painting, but because it means more hallway time, more information, more of whatever it is she's always quietly collecting. She comes back with contraband graham crackers, fresh gossip whispered in your ear during lunch, and occasionally a new nurse wrapped around her finger thinking she's going to be a success story.
Days accumulate. You start giving her your chocolate pudding at lunch. She leaves you newspaper comic cutouts folded into neat squares. You find her unsettling at first. Then fascinating. Then necessary.
Some nights, she sneaks into your room. You always know it's her. The careful way the door closes, the coldness of her touch.
She'll slide under the thin blankets and press herself against your back, mouth resting between your shoulder blades. Her fingers, clumsy and icy, find your hair.
The moonlight catches the stupid, lumpy bracelets she made for the two of you in art therapy, beads spelling out your names. She wore yours. You wore hers.
“We're getting out of here."
She never says it like it's a silly daydream. It's simply a fact.
"Houdini escaped from a locked crate at the bottom of the East River. Submerged, chained, and he got out.” A pause. “A fucking nuthouse is amateur hour.”
She paints a picture of a world outside the facility. Real food that doesn't taste like cardboard. A date in the bookstore her brother works at. A normal life where you can have the strings in your hoodie and the freedom to just breathe.
"We could have sex," she says, trying very hard not to laugh and failing slightly. "Like. actual sex. With a door that locks. In a bed with a frame. Crazy concept, huh?"
The concept was crazy, impossible even.
But she has a way of making the impossible seem within reach.
A/n: some Leon smut with fem reader hehe. Requiem Leon in mind!
Contains: 18+, Minors DNI. Explicit sexual content, smut, established relationship, body worship (chubby/plus-size reader), praise kink, slight possessiveness, unprotected sex, mentions of alcohol (whiskey), post-mission intimacy, Requiem Leon Kennedy being a soft dom for his girl.
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The air in the dimly lit room was thick with the scent of whiskey and something uniquely Leon—a mix of gunpowder, leather, and the faint, clean smell of his cologne. He sat on the edge of the hotel bed, the mattress dipping under his weight, his back to her. The broad expanse of his shoulders, tense even in rest, was a testament to the years of survival etched into his very being.
She watched him from the doorway, her heart a frantic drum against her ribs. Leon now was harder, colder, the years of fighting having carved away the boyish charm she remembered from stories, leaving behind a man forged in fire. But his eyes, when he turned to her, still held that flicker of something vulnerable, something that made her ache.
He finally looked over his shoulder, his piercing blue eyes catching the low light. "You gonna stand there all night?" His voice was a low rumble, a gravelly sound that vibrated through her.
She took a hesitant step into the room. "I was just... thinking."
He turned fully, swinging one leg up onto the bed, his gaze sweeping over her. It wasn't a judgmental look, but an assessing one, as if he were memorizing every curve. He'd seen her naked before, touched every inch of her soft, ample body, yet his intensity never failed to make her feel like the first time. It made her feel seen, truly seen, in a way no one else ever had.
"Come here," he commanded, his tone softening just enough to be an invitation rather than an order.
She moved to him, stopping between his knees. His hands came to rest on her hips, his thumbs tracing circles over the fabric of her simple cotton shirt. The warmth of his touch seeped through the material, sending a shiver up her spine. He leaned forward, pressing his face against the softness of her stomach, his breath hot through the thin shirt.
"You're so soft," he murmured, his voice muffled against her. It was a statement of fact, but it sounded like worship. He nuzzled deeper, his hands sliding around to grip the generous curve of her ass, pulling her flush against him. She could feel the hard press of his arousal through his jeans, a stark contrast to the yielding softness of her body against his face.
His hands roamed, mapping the landscape of her with a reverence that made her breath catch. He hooked his fingers in the waistband of her leggings and tugged them down, his eyes never leaving hers as the fabric pooled around her ankles. He helped her step out of them, his gaze darkening as he took in the sight of her—her thick thighs, the soft swell of her belly, the curve of her hips.
"Perfect," he breathed, the word a raw, honest confession.
He stood then, his movements fluid and predatory, backing her toward the bed until her legs hit the mattress and she fell back with a soft gasp. He followed her down, caging her in with his body, his weight a welcome pressure. He was all hard lines and lean muscle, a beautiful, dangerous contradiction against her softness.
His mouth claimed hers, a desperate, hungry kiss that tasted of whiskey and longing. It wasn't gentle; it was a claiming, a reminder that they were both alive, here, in this moment. His hands were everywhere, tugging her shirt over her head, unhooking her bra with practiced ease until she was bare to his appreciative gaze.
He kissed his way down her body, his lips and tongue worshipping every inch of her soft skin. He lingered on her breasts, taking one peaked nipple into his mouth and sucking hard, his teeth scraping just enough to send a jolt of pleasure-pain straight to her core. His other hand kneaded her other breast, his thumb flicking over the sensitive bud.
She arched into him, her fingers tangling in his hair, pulling him closer. He moved lower, his mouth tracing a path over the soft curve of her belly. He didn't shy away from it; he reveled in it, his tongue dipping into her navel, his hands gripping her thick thighs, pushing them apart.
"Leon," she gasped, his name a plea on her lips.
He looked up at her from between her thighs, his eyes dark with lust and something deeper, something that looked terrifyingly like love. "I've got you," he promised, his voice a low growl.
And then his mouth was on her, hot and insistent. He licked and sucked with a single-minded focus, his tongue delving into her folds, finding that sensitive bundle of nerves and circling it mercilessly. She bucked against his mouth, her hands fisting in the sheets, her breath coming in ragged sobs. The pleasure was overwhelming, a tidal wave building deep inside her.
He slid one finger inside her, then another, curling them just right to hit that spot that made her see stars. He worked her with his mouth and fingers, pushing her higher and higher until she shattered, her orgasm ripping through her with a force that left her trembling and breathless.
He didn't give her time to recover. He moved up her body, his own clothes disappearing in a flurry of motion until he was as naked as she was. He settled between her thighs, his hard length pressing against her still-sensitive entrance.
He looked down at her, his blue eyes burning into hers. "You're mine," he said, his voice a raw, possessive rasp.
"Yours," she whispered back, her hands coming up to cup his face.
He pushed into her in one smooth, deep thrust, and they both groaned at the sensation. He filled her completely, stretching her in the most delicious way. He started to move, his strokes slow and deep at first, building a rhythm that was both punishing and pleasurable.
She wrapped her legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, meeting him thrust for thrust. The room was filled with the sounds of their bodies moving together, their harsh breaths, and the soft, desperate sounds of their pleasure. He bent his head to her neck, his teeth scraping against her skin, marking her as his.
The pressure built again, a coiling heat in her belly that grew tighter and tighter with each powerful thrust of his hips. He reached between them, his thumb finding her clit and rubbing in tight, firm circles.
"Come for me," he commanded, his voice strained with his own impending release.
That was all it took. She shattered again, her inner walls clamping down around him as wave after wave of pleasure washed over her. With a guttural groan, he followed her over the edge, his own release pulsing deep inside her.
He collapsed on top of her, his weight a comforting, grounding presence. They lay there for a long time, their bodies tangled together, their breathing slowly returning to normal. He rolled off her, pulling her into his arms, her head resting on his chest, his heartbeat a steady, reassuring rhythm against her ear.
He kissed the top of her head, his fingers stroking her hair. "Stay with me," he murmured into the darkness.
She tightened her arm around his waist, pressing a kiss to his chest. "Always."
In the quiet aftermath, with the weight of the world outside the door momentarily forgotten, they were just two people finding solace in each other's arms, a soft, chubby woman and a hardened survivor, two halves of a whole, bound by something far stronger than just desire.
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⋆ ˚ ۪ ⋆ ୨୧ your older boyfriend is home. which means pancakes at 4 a.m., road stories, and another tour souvenir. | inspo | wc: 1322.
The world was quiet, just the soft whirr of heat from the vents and a Hong Kong Fuck You EP humming low in the background. The dashboard clock blinked 4:07 a.m., the wet pavement shimmered in the headlights. You were curled in the passenger seat, knees up, cheek pressed to the rain fogged window, half asleep. The air inside smelled like him— stale coffee, lingering cigarette smoke, and the faint, spicy smell of that Gucci cologne he'd splurged on months ago.
Frank's hand rested on your thigh, a calloused palm warm against your pajama pants, his thumb tracing slow circles, both a habit and quiet apology for his absence. His eyes were half lidded, but his driving was steady, fixed on the empty, rain slick roads.
Three hours ago he’d texted:
'Landed. 🛬 You awake? '
You didn’t even think. Hoodie on, shoes half-tied, out the door before your brain could snap some sense into you. Anyone else at that hour would've gotten a groan and a roll over into the blankets. But Frank was different. Frank was the exception to every rule you ever made
He eased the car into the cracked lot of Kelly’s Kitchen, a place that had probably been around since the election of JFK. The neon sign flickered weak pink and blue, sputtering like a tired heartbeat about to give out. It wasn’t pretty, but it was yours. It was the place he always brought you when he came home.
Inside, the air hung heavy with grease and burnt coffee. A couple of truckers hunched over their steaming mugs; a pair of nurses whispered over pie in a nearby booth.
Frank’s hand found the small of your back, guiding you to your usual spot, the one in the far corner with the cracked red vinyl that snagged your clothes and the jukebox that only worked if you smacked it just right.
A waitress who knew your faces shuffled over and dropped two sticky, laminated menus onto the table. Frank didn't glance at his.
“Two coffees. Black. Pancakes, extra butter, side of eggs, scrambled. And whatever she wants.” His voice rough from the road.
You mumbled something about eggs and toast, still shaking the sleep that clung to you. He smirked, eyes crinkling, the crow’s feet you adored deepening.
As the waitress walked away, Frank leaned back, stretching his legs until the toe of his boot nudged your sloppily laced sneaker
You looked at him properly, comparing him to the last time you’d seen him. His hair had grown out, dark curls brushing the nape of his neck. His face was scruffier, the road never left time for shaving. He looked more tired than usual, large hands rubbing at his eyes with a drawn out sigh.
You bit back a smile. This was your old man.
“Missed you.” He fished into his jacket pocket and pulled out a small box wrapped in crumpled newspaper, sliding it across the table with a nudge of his knuckles.
“Here. Got it in Boston. Gee dragged me to a comic shop.”
You peeled back the paper carefully, your heart doing a slow, painful squeeze seeing what was inside. It was a small figurine—a cartoon cherub with oversized eyes and pink rabbit ears, its chubby cheeks painted a faded rose.
“Sunny Angels? Sonic Angels? Whatever the hell kids are into these days.” He shrugged it off with a tired wave. “Made me think of you. Big eyes, stupid smile.”
You laughed quietly, tracing the edge of its ear. You had a collection of these little knickknacks Frank often brought home from tour—a snow globe from Seattle, a painted shell from some beach in Florida, a keychain from New York with Snoopy plastered on the back. They crowded your bedside table, but they often made those quiet nights alone a little less hard.
"Good to know my smile's stupid," you chuckled to yourself, falling back on sarcasm to keep your tears from falling.
Frank didn’t laugh. He just watched you, his head tilted, his expression unreadable in the dim diner light. His boot nudged you under the table, aware of your deflecting habits.
"It is," he finally spoke up, voice low and rough. "Stupid enough to make me do stupid shit. " Like flying home half-dead from stage and driving straight from the airport to your place instead of his own bed. Like texting you at 1 a.m. because he couldn’t sleep without seeing your face.
The coffee arrived, thick and black as motor oil. Frank’s tattooed hands wrapped around the mug and took a much needed sip. You cradled yours, letting the heat wake you up a bit. For a while there was only the clink of your spoon stirring in sugar, the distant sizzle from the kitchen, and his occasional yawn.
For most of the silence he stared out the window watching the rain fall and hit the pavement. His mind was a thousand miles away, recalibrating from tour life.
"You look tired," you said softly, the words slipping out before you could stop them.
He turned his gaze back to you, the corner of his mouth lifting. "Try sleeping next to Ray's snoring for eight hours and see how you look."
Your smile was fragile. Reunions were always like this at first, awkward and tender, like having a first date all over again.
He seemed to feel it too. He reached across the table and brushed his fingers over yours, thumb circling your knuckle once, twice.
"Gonna be home for a while this time," he murmured, eyes locking on yours. "Three weeks.”
Three weeks. Realistically, it wasn't a lot of time. But God, was it better than nothing.
The food arrived, breaking the moment. A tower of pancakes for him, eggs and toast for you. He buttered the stack with quiet concentration, syrup pooling at the edges, and ate like a starved man. After weeks of gas station protein bars and sad microwave burritos, anything warm felt like heaven on his tongue.
You watched him between bites, picking at your eggs. “How was the show?”
He swallowed, chasing it down with a swing of coffee. “Loud. Sweaty. Mikey almost broke a string during ‘This Is the Best Day Ever.’ Crowd lost their shit, Philly kids always do.” He said it all in a flat, matter-of-fact tone, like he was reading from a grocery list. These were the stories that made fans scream, and to him, it was just a regular day.
You laughed, a real one this time, and he hid a smile behind his mug. That was the real gift. Not the knickknacks, but these small glimpses into chaotic life.
When the waitress came with the check, you reached out of habit, but Frank snatched it first, fishing crumpled twenties from his wallet and tossing them down.
"Keep your money. You got college textbooks to pay for.”
Outside, the rain softened to a mist. He held the door, hand settling at the small of your back again as he walked you to the car. You slid into the passenger seat. He cranked the engine but didn’t pull out right away. Instead, he just sat there, hands loose on the wheel, staring into the lot as the diner’s neon streaked his profile in alternating pink and blue.
Then he turned, really looking at you. His dark eyes scanned your face, memorizing every little detail to make up lost time.
He reached over, rough palm squeezing your jaw, thumb tracing your cheek. Frank wasn’t the lovey type, most of his affection came dressed in sarcasm and dry dad humor. But once in a blue moon, he allowed soft moments like these.
He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. Just a peck, quick, but it said everything he wouldn’t.
A/N: here is fluffy friday!! Sinful Saturday is tomorrow est time!!
Contains: fluff, reader taking care of Levi, soft levi moment
The early morning light filtered through the curtains of Levi's small office, casting long shadows across the meticulously organized room. Levi sat at his desk, pen in hand, reviewing reports from the latest expedition beyond the walls. His focus was absolute, as always, until the soft sound of the door opening broke his concentration.
"Levi?" a gentle voice called out.
He didn't look up immediately, but the slight relaxation of his shoulders was enough to show he recognized the visitor. "What do you want,It's barely dawn."
She stepped inside, carrying a steaming mug of black tea. "I brought you something. You haven't left your office since last night."
Levi finally lifted his gaze, his steel gray eyes meeting hers. A flicker of something—perhaps gratitude—crossed his features before being replaced by his usual stoic expression. "I was busy."
"Too busy to remember to eat or drink, apparently," she replied softly, placing the mug on a coaster on his desk. "You need to take care of yourself too, not just everyone else."
He picked up the mug, his fingers brushing against hers briefly. "Tch. Don't tell me how to live my life."
She smiled, knowing this was Levi's way of accepting her concern without admitting it. "I wouldn't dream of it, Captain."
She moved to stand beside his chair, looking over his shoulder at the documents. "Anything interesting?"
"Just the usual. Titan casualties, supply shortages, new recruits needing more training," he listed off, taking a sip of the tea. "It's perfect temperature."
"I know how you like it," she said quietly. "After all this time, I should."
Levi set the mug down, turning slightly in his chair to face her. His expression was unreadable, but his eyes held something softer than usual. "Why do you keep doing this?"
"Doing what?" She asked, genuinely confused.
"This," he gestured vaguely between them. "Taking care of me. Bringing me tea. Making sure I eat."
She blinked, surprised by his directness. "Because... I care about you, Levi. Is that so hard to understand?"
He was silent for a long moment, simply studying her face. Finally, he reached out, his hand finding hers. "No one's ever cared like you do."
His touch was gentle despite the calluses from years of handling maneuver gear and blades. She squeezed his hand lightly. "Well, someone has to. You're always taking care of everyone else. Who takes care of Levi Ackerman?"
"I don't need taking care of," he grumbled, though he didn't pull his hand away.
She laughed softly. "You're the worst liar I know."
Levi's lips curved into the barest hint of a smile. "Only with you."
They sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes, the early morning sounds of the headquarters beginning to filter through the walls. Levi broke the quiet first. "Come back later. After dinner."
She nodded, understanding his unspoken invitation. "I will."
As she turned to leave, he spoke again. "Hey."
"Yes?"
"Thank you."
She smiled, a genuine, warm expression that made Levi's breath catch. "Anytime, Levi. Anytime."
When she closed the door behind her, Levi allowed himself a rare moment of vulnerability, closing his eyes and inhaling the aroma of the tea she'd brought him. In the harsh world they lived in, these small moments of warmth were everything.
I HAVE A REQUEST- one piece, buggy x fem reader, i want some smut that includes him using his devil fruit power during it, you choose what happens hehe
𝑷𝑯𝑨𝑵𝑻𝑶𝑴 𝑻𝑶𝑼𝑪𝑯
A/N: here you go wifey!! Enjoy!!
Contains: Explicit sexual content (smut), use of devil fruit powers during sexual activity, detached body parts, fingering, orgasm. Does mention Cross Guild briefly so can be seen as a spoiler?
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The salty air of the Grand Line clung to her skin, a familiar scent that now mingled with the musky, ozone-like aroma that was uniquely Buggy. They were in the captain's quarters of the Cross Guild's flagship, a room draped in crimson and gold, a chaotic mess of maps, treasure, and ego. But tonight, the ego was temporarily set aside.
Buggy stood before her, his trademark blue hair slightly disheveled, a smirk playing on his lips that was equal parts cocky and genuinely excited. His gloved hands, usually gesturing wildly or clutching at his daggers, were now tracing the curve of her hips. "You're sure about this, dollface?" he asked, his voice a low rumble. "Can't say I've ever tried this particular trick before."
She met his gaze, her own eyes dark with anticipation. "I'm sure, Captain. Show me what you can do."
That was all the encouragement he needed. With a theatrical flourish that was pure Buggy, he detached his hands. The sensation was bizarre and thrilling. His gloves hands remained on her body, one still gripping her hip, the other sliding up to cup her breast, while his main body stood a few feet away, watching with an intense, focused expression. It was like being touched by a ghost, a phantom that possessed all the skill and desire of the man himself.
His thumbs began to circle her nipple through the thin fabric of her shirt, the friction sending a jolt straight to her core. She let out a soft gasp, her head falling back. From across the room, Buggy chuckled, a low, predatory sound. "Like that, do ya?"
His hands moved with a mind of their own—or rather, with his mind, just disconnected from his physical form. They deftly unbuttoned her shirt, parting the fabric to expose her chest to the cool air. The cool leather of his gloves was a stark contrast against her heated skin as his palms fully covered her breasts, squeezing and kneading. She could feel his eyes on her, burning with a possessive fire that was far more intense than if he were touching her with his own two hands.
Then, one of his hands began its journey south. It slid down her stomach, tracing the waistband of her shorts before dipping lower. She held her breath, her body trembling. The fingers, still clad in their leather, were expert as they teased her through the fabric, stroking and pressing until she was writhing, desperate for more.
"Please, Buggy," she breathed out.
"Patience," he commanded, though his voice was strained with his own arousal. His other hand continued its work on her breast, pinching and rolling her nipple. The dual stimulation was overwhelming, a symphony of sensation conducted by a man who wasn't even touching her.
Finally, with a smirk she could see from across the room, his hand slipped beneath her panties. The leather was slick against her wetness as his fingers found her clit. He circled it slowly, deliberately, drawing out the anticipation until she was panting his name. He watched her every reaction, his detached fingers moving in perfect sync with his desires, learning what made her gasp, what made her moan.
He slid one finger inside her, then another, the leather stretching her, filling her in a way that was both strange and intensely erotic. He began to pump them in and out, his thumb still working her clit. The pressure built, an unstoppable tide. She was completely at his mercy, held captive by disembodied hands while their master watched, his own body now showing clear signs of his arousal.
As she teetered on the edge, he decided to up the ante. "Hold on tight," he grunted.
She felt a strange tingling sensation, a sudden chill. She looked down and saw that his fingers inside her had detached. She gasped as she felt them separate inside her, moving independently, stroking her inner walls from different angles at once. It was an impossible, mind-bending feeling. His thumb remained on her clit, while his other hand continued to torment her breast. She was being stimulated by four separate pieces of him, all while his smug, beautiful face watched her fall apart.
That was it. The sheer, decadent weirdness of it, the skillful touch, the visual of him standing there fully clothed, orchestrating her pleasure with detached body parts—it sent her over the edge. She cried out, her body arching as her orgasm crashed over her, powerful and all-consuming.
As the waves of pleasure subsided, the detached pieces of him slowly reformed, his fingers pulling out of her and reattaching to the hand on her breast, which then flew back to his wrist. He was on her in an instant, his real body pressing against hers, his mouth claiming hers in a hungry, demanding kiss.
"Told you it'd be good," he murmured against her lips, his voice thick with satisfaction. "And we're just getting started."
Contains: smut, piv, Sanemi is desperate, Sanemi also being emotional towards the end, rough sex
The air in the small, sparsely furnished room was thick with the metallic scent of blood and the sharp, clean smell of antiseptic. Sanemi Shinazugawa stood with his back to her, his shoulders rigid, his white haori stained crimson and torn. He had just returned from a particularly brutal mission, one that had pushed him to his limits and beyond. He hadn't said a word since he'd stumbled through the door, his usual gruff silence replaced by a heavy, oppressive quiet that was far more unnerving.
She watched him from the doorway, her heart aching with a mixture of relief and profound sorrow. He was alive. That was the only thing that mattered. But the cost of his survival was written all over him—in the deep exhaustion that etched lines around his eyes, in the slight tremor in his hands, and in the dark, volatile energy that radiated from him in waves.
He had cleaned his wounds with a methodical, detached precision, his movements economical and efficient. Now, he was just standing there, staring at the wall as if it held the answers to questions he couldn't bring himself to ask. He was a man haunted by the ghosts of his past and the weight of his present, a man who carried the burden of his duty like a physical wound.
"Sanemi," she said softly, her voice a gentle whisper in the quiet room.
He didn't turn around. "Go to bed," he growled, his voice rough, strained. "I'm fine."
"You're not," she countered, taking a cautious step into the room. "Let me help."
"I don't need your help," he snarled, his voice laced with a familiar, defensive anger. "I'm not a child."
"I know you're not," she said, her voice still soft, still gentle. She moved closer, her hand reaching out to touch his arm.
He flinched away from her touch as if he'd been burned, his head whipping around to glare at her. His eyes were wild, a turbulent storm of anger, pain, and a desperate, gnawing hunger. "Don't touch me," he warned, his voice a low, dangerous growl. "I'm not in the mood."
She didn't back down. She knew him too well. She knew his anger was a shield, a wall he built around himself to keep the world at bay, to keep the pain at bay. But she also knew what lay beneath that wall—a deep, abiding loneliness and a desperate need for connection, for comfort, for something to hold onto.
"You don't have to be strong with me," she said, her eyes meeting his, her gaze unwavering. "You don't have to be the Wind Hashira right now. You can just be Sanemi."
Her words seemed to break something in him. The anger in his eyes flickered, replaced by a raw, agonizing vulnerability that was so much more terrifying. He stared at her for a long moment, his jaw working, his fists clenching and unclenching at his sides.
Then, with a guttural, broken sound, he closed the distance between them in two long strides. He didn't kiss her. He didn't speak. He simply grabbed her, his hands roughly gripping her arms, and slammed her back against the wall. His mouth crashed down on hers, a brutal, desperate kiss that was more of a collision than a caress.
It was a kiss born of desperation, a raw, primal act of seeking solace. It tasted of blood and unshed tears, of rage and a profound, soul-deep weariness. His hands were everywhere, tearing at her clothes, his grip bruisingly tight, as if he was afraid she might disappear if he let go.
"Sanemi," she gasped, her hands fisting in his hair, pulling him closer.
"Don't talk," he snarled against her lips, his voice a low, guttural growl. "Just... don't talk."
He yanked her yukata open, his mouth moving from her lips to her neck, biting and sucking hard enough to leave marks that would be a painful, beautiful reminder of this moment. He was rough, almost violent, his touch a desperate, hungry plea for something he couldn't name.
He fumbled with his own pants, yanking them down just enough to free himself. He hooked his hands under her thighs, lifting her effortlessly and pinning her against the wall. He didn't give her a moment to prepare before he slammed into her, burying himself to the hilt in one brutal, unrelenting thrust.
She cried out, a mixture of pain and overwhelming pleasure, her nails digging into his broad shoulders. He didn't apologize. He didn't slow down. He set a punishing pace, his hips pistoning into her with a force that stole her breath. Each thrust was deep and hard, a desperate, frantic rhythm that spoke of a man on the edge, a man clinging to the one good thing in his life.
He buried his face in the crook of her neck, his harsh, ragged breaths hot against her skin. She could feel the tremor that ran through his body, the barely suppressed tremors of a man pushed to his breaking point. She wrapped her legs around his waist, holding on tight, her body a willing vessel for his pain, his anger, his desperation.
"Look at me," she commanded, her voice a soft, firm whisper.
He lifted his head, his eyes meeting hers. They were filled with a raw, agonizing pain, a desperate plea for something he couldn't articulate. She saw the broken little boy who had lost everything, the man who had sacrificed his own humanity for the sake of others, the warrior who was so, so tired.
"It's okay," she whispered, her hand coming up to cup his cheek, her thumb gently stroking his skin. "I've got you. Let me have you."
Her words were his undoing. With a choked sob, he shattered, his rhythm faltering as the dam of his emotions finally broke. He wasn't the Wind Hashira anymore. He wasn't a demon slayer. He was just Sanemi. A man who was hurting, a man who was lost, a man who was desperate for a moment of peace.
He found his release a moment later, his hips stuttering as he spilled into her with a final, deep groan. He collapsed against her, his full weight pinning her to the wall, his face buried in her hair. His body shook with the force of his silent sobs, his shoulders heaving with the weight of his unshed tears.
She held him, her arms wrapped tightly around him, her hands stroking his back in a soothing, rhythmic motion. She didn't speak. She didn't offer empty platitudes. She just held him, offering him the one thing he needed most in that moment: her unwavering, unconditional presence.
After a long time, his sobs subsided, replaced by a quiet, exhausted stillness. He lifted his head, his eyes red-rimmed and raw. He looked at her, a flicker of shame in his gaze, but she just smiled, a soft, gentle smile that was full of love and understanding.
He leaned in and captured her lips in a slow, tender kiss, a stark contrast to the brutal desperation of their earlier encounter. It was a kiss of gratitude, of apology, of a love that was too deep for words.
"I'm sorry," he murmured, his voice a hoarse, broken whisper.
"You have nothing to be sorry for," she replied, her hand coming up to gently stroke his hair. "I'm here. I'll always be here."
He rested his forehead against hers, his eyes closing, a deep, weary sigh escaping his lips. In the quiet of the room, with the scent of blood and antiseptic still lingering in the air, he had finally found his peace. He had found his anchor. He had found his home.
A/N: I am taking one piece requests! For those who are fans of one piece as well me! I will soon be making a one piece Masterlist but knowing me and my love for Trafalgar Law he will have separate Masterlist haha check out my pinned post to see who I write for! It will be updated a lot so be sure to check periodically!
Contains: fluff, soft domestic moments, gentle kissing, Law being soft, mild overworking/exhaustion, comfort, established relationship
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The sea was calm that evening, a rare mercy for the crew of the Polar Tang. The submarine drifted gently beneath the surface, its metal hull humming softly as it cut through the water. Inside, most of the Heart Pirates were either asleep or scattered through the corridors, keeping their usual watch.
In his office, Law sat hunched over a stack of medical charts and maps. The dim overhead light cast shadows across his sharp features, and his spotted hat rested beside him on the desk. He had been working for hours, long after he had told everyone else to get some rest. It was typical of him—shouldering responsibility in silence, convincing himself he functioned better that way.
The door creaked open softly.
He did not look up at first. “If it’s Bepo, I already said I’ll be done soon.”
“It’s not Bepo.”
Her voice was gentle, warm in contrast to the sterile quiet of the room.
Law’s pen paused mid-scratch. He glanced up, and the tension in his shoulders eased almost immediately when he saw her standing there. She wore one of his oversized hoodies, the sleeves falling past her hands, and her hair was slightly messy from sleep. She looked far softer than the cold steel surroundings deserved.
“You should be asleep,” he said, though there was no bite in his tone.
She stepped inside and closed the door behind her. “I could say the same thing to you.”
Law exhaled quietly through his nose, leaning back in his chair. “I don’t need as much sleep.”
She raised a brow at that. “That’s a lie.”
He almost smirked.
She walked around the desk without asking permission, because she never needed it, and stopped in front of him. For a moment she simply looked at him, studying the faint dark circles beneath his eyes, the crease between his brows that only appeared when he was overworking himself.
Without a word, she reached up and brushed her fingers against his temple.
Law stilled.
Her touch was soft and careful, like she was afraid he might disappear if she pressed too hard. She traced the line of his sideburn gently, then slid her hand down to cup his jaw. His skin was warm beneath her palm.
“You’re tired,” she said quietly.
He did not argue this time.
Instead, his hand came up to wrap around her wrist, not to move her away, but to hold her there. His thumb brushed lightly over her pulse, slow and steady. It grounded him in a way nothing else did.
“I had things to review,” he murmured.
“And they’ll still be there tomorrow.”
Silence settled between them, but it was comfortable. It always was with her.
Law finally pushed his chair back slightly and reached forward, pulling her closer by the waist. She let out a soft sound of surprise before settling easily between his knees. His hands rested at her hips, fingers spreading possessively but gently against the fabric of his hoodie she wore.
He tilted his head up to look at her.
For someone so stoic and intimidating to the outside world, the way he looked at her was something else entirely. His golden eyes softened, the usual calculating sharpness melting into something tender and almost vulnerable.
“You worry too much,” he said quietly.
She smiled. “Someone has to.”
His thumb brushed under the hem of the hoodie at her waist, tracing idle patterns against her skin. He leaned forward slightly until his forehead rested against her stomach. It was an unguarded gesture, one he would never let anyone else see.
She froze for a second, surprised by the intimacy of it, then gently ran her fingers through his dark hair.
Law closed his eyes.
Her nails lightly scratched against his scalp, and a soft sigh escaped him before he could stop it. His arms tightened around her waist, pulling her closer as if anchoring himself to her presence. In this small room beneath the ocean, with miles of water pressing around them, she was the only thing that made him feel light.
“Stay,” he murmured, voice quieter now.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
He shifted, guiding her carefully until she was sitting sideways on his lap. His arms wrapped around her fully this time, one hand resting at the small of her back while the other settled over her thigh. She curled into him naturally, one arm looping around his neck.
The room no longer felt cold.
She pressed a soft kiss to his temple. Then another to his cheek. When she reached the corner of his mouth, he turned slightly and caught her lips with his.
The kiss was slow and unhurried. Law was not rough, not demanding. His hand slid up her back, fingers splaying gently between her shoulder blades as if memorizing the shape of her. He kissed her like he had nowhere else to be and no battle waiting for him tomorrow.
When they pulled apart, their foreheads rested together.
“You’re going to bed,” she whispered.
He huffed lightly. “Bossy.”
“And you love me for it.”
A pause.
“…Yeah,” he admitted quietly.
It was rare for him to say it so plainly, but when he did, it meant everything.
She smiled softly, brushing her nose against his. “Come on, Captain.”
He stood, still holding her, refusing to let go even as he moved. His hand slipped into hers as they left the office, fingers intertwining naturally. The hallway lights were dim, the submarine quiet except for the low mechanical hum.
Inside his cabin, he finally removed his coat and hat, setting them aside. She crawled into his bed first, pulling the blankets back invitingly.
Law hesitated for only a second before sliding in beside her.
The moment he settled, she moved closer, pressing against his chest. He wrapped both arms around her instinctively, pulling her flush against him. His chin rested on the top of her head, and his fingers slowly traced lazy patterns along her back.
The world above the ocean could be chaotic and cruel. There were enemies to defeat, alliances to navigate, storms to survive.
But here, in the quiet hum of the Polar Tang, wrapped around the woman he loved, Trafalgar Law allowed himself to relax.
His breathing evened out first.
She felt it before she heard it—the slow, steady rhythm of sleep finally claiming him.
Her fingers continued to move gently against his chest, and she smiled softly in the dark.
Because no matter how fierce the sea became, she would always be here to bring her captain home to rest.
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a/n: oh man, i still can't believe this was an idea sent to me in november, and we're finally finishing it in july. time flies. hopefully, i properly expressed my thoughts in this final chapter. i had such a specific vision it was tricky to put on paper. anyways, thank you guys for reading and dealing with my hectic posting schedules !! xoxo, illi.
𓏲 ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖ November 2003. Sunday. ⊹ ࣪ ˖﹒
You'd been at this for three hours.
Three hours of a perfectly good Sunday morning that should've been spent on adult responsibilities—laundry, groceries, maybe answering the emails piling up in your inbox. Instead, you'd fallen down a research rabbit hole that had taken over your entire morning.
Yesterday's world-shattering question had been: What does Frank see when he looks at me?
Today's was: How do you press a stolen chrysanthemum?
You told yourself it wasn’t sentimental. It was absolutely not sentimental.
This wasn’t some mushy keepsake marking the beginning of something new with a boy who’d made you trip over your own feet outside your apartment building.
No way.
This was simply about…preservation.
You were a woman with an eye for aesthetics. It would’ve been a waste to discard something that still had some life left in it. The burnt orange would look striking framed against your living room wall, a pop of colour in your world of neutrals. Or perhaps, pressed between the pages of a book, a tasteful bookmark for your next read.
That was all this was. Purely for aesthetics.
Adjusting your reading glasses, you grabbed the notepad beside your laptop and scanned the notes from your deep dive into the surprisingly complex world of flower preservation.
Method One: Microwaving.
An eHow article titled "Press Flowers in MINUTES =)" promised flawless results with nothing more than a microwave, a paper towel, and thirty-second intervals. Simple. Efficient. Ideal for any curious beginner with a microwave and a dream.
For a moment, you considered it. Then you thought about your next plate of leftovers tasting faintly of a stranger's garden. The thought made you shudder. A line was drawn through the idea.
Method Two: Wooden Press.
A gardening forum recommended the traditional route: a wooden flower press. Users defended the method as if it were gospel, insisting that every alternative was a waste of time.
“Patience isn’t optional; it is PART of the ART. Rushing with heat is an INSULT ."
You rolled your eyes. The real insult would be dropping eighty dollars on equipment for a project you'd probably never do again. Another line was made.
Method Three: A Book.
A PDF you'd stumbled across offered the simplest approach: place the flower between parchment paper, sandwich it inside a heavy book, and wait. Seven to ten days for decent results. Two weeks for perfection. No insulting the art. No risking your leftovers. No spending money on equipment that would collect dust in the back of a closet. Just a clean final product.
Perfect.
Pushing back your chair, you went into the living room, crouched in front of the wooden bookshelf, and pulled out two heavy English textbooks and an encyclopedia for good measure.
Back at the kitchen table, you worked with the careful precision of a surgeon. The chrysanthemum rested on a fresh sheet of parchment paper, its delicate petals fanned with the tip of a pen. You were just moments away from finishing your work when the phone in your room pierced the silence.
Without a single doubt, you knew who it was.
Setting the pen aside, you made your way into your bedroom and picked up the receiver. "Hello?"
“Yo, waddup girlie.”
The casual ease of it caught you completely off guard. Girlie. Like it was a title he'd been using for years, like it was simply what you were to him now in this brand-new chapter. Before you could decide whether you liked it or wanted to be offended by it, he pushed on.
"So. I'm having a situation this morning. A conundrum, if you will." He shifted around, the sound of fabric rustling as he settled in. "Typically, I'm a self-sufficient guy, y'know? Figure my own shit out. But this one's got me stumped. And I thought — who's the smartest person I know? Who's got a brain that makes Einstein look average?"
Your eyes narrowed behind your glasses. The concept of Frank asking for help—help specifically from you—was an automatic red flag. But that brain of yours, always so eager to problem-solve, was already intrigued. Not to mention, the flattery. As obvious as it was, it worked like a charm.
“What kind of conundrum?”
"Well." A long, theatrical sigh. "I think going out last night might've got me sick. My health's always been shitty, but this...this is freakin' me out a little, not gonna lie."
The alarm bells in your head quiet down. Why would he be freaking out about his health? "Are you okay?"
"I dunno." Frank’s voice dropped into something uncertain, stripped of its usual confident tone. "I've got a checkup tomorrow anyway, but I woke up this morning, and I'm wondering if I need, like, urgent care."
“Your skin?” Cradling the receiver between your shoulder and ear, you walked back to the kitchen, mentally running through different diagnoses. Mrs. Sartori did say he had food allergies. Was there cross-contamination in the kitchen? Did he have a delayed allergic reaction to something in the arrabbiata? “What’s it doing? Is it a rash? Hives? Is there any swelling—are your lips or tongue involved?”
"Whoa, whoa — slow down, Harvard." He chuckled, though it sounded strained. "It's nothing like that. It's just weird. And it's in a really specific spot."
"Where, Frank?"
“It’s on my face.” He responded. “It’s not itchy or anything, but it’s fuckin’ massive and red, and I don’t know what it is. Never seen anything like it.”
Although delayed anaphylaxis is rare, it wasn’t unheard of. For the first time ever, you felt genuine concern for Frank. Reaching the kitchen table, you grabbed your pen and notepad, ready to jot down his symptoms. "Okay, how big are we talking? Is it burning? Tingling?”
"I dunno, maybe like...the size of your mouth?"
The pen hovered over the paper.
"Excuse me?"
"Yeah.” His voice completely changed. The uncertainty that pulled at your heartstrings vanished, replaced with pure mischief. You could practically hear the shit-eating grin stretching across his face. “It’s shaped exactly like lips right here on my cheek. Weird, right? What do you think I should do?”
It felt like you were experiencing every human emotion at once. Mortification. Fury. The bizarre urge to laugh, because what was your life these past few days?
"You’re a fucking child.”
He absolutely lost it. His laughter burst through the receiver, loud and hiccupy, the kind of laugh that folded a person in half. "I'm serious! I woke up, looked in the mirror, and it's still there! I thought I had some kind of medical condition! I scrubbed my face raw, man—nothing! Can you blame me for being worried?"
“I’m hanging up.” You pulled the receiver away from your ear.
“Wait, wait, wait!” he pleaded between the hiccups. “Don’t hang up. C’mon, it was funny.”
"It was not funny. It was juvenile and manipulative."
"I’m like Dane Cook but with actual talent.”
You pressed two fingers to your temple, rubbing slow, hard circles. "Is there a point to this call? I'm busy."
“Okay, okay, listen.” He cleared his throat, attempting to pull himself together. “What are you doing Wednesday?”
You looked over your shoulder at the oversized wall calendar hanging beside the fridge. The remaining squares of November were mapped out in colour-coded blocks. Shifts at Mel's in blue, study group in green, monthly facial in pink. You scanned for Wednesday.
A blank square stared back.
“Why are you asking?”
“If you’re not busy,” he chose his words carefully, the vulnerability from last night's car ride creeping back into his voice. "We could go through that box. My grandfather's stuff. If you still want to."
You looked at the empty square for a long moment.
“I’m… very busy Wednesday. Extremely full schedule.” The lie was automatic. "However, I could potentially squeeze you in. Make space for an hour. Maybe two."
"Yeah? Does six work?”
"Six works."
"Okay. Cool." He sounded giddy, quickly rattling off his address. “Uh, hey.”
"What?"
“I had a good time last night.”
You were still annoyed by his childish stunt, annoyed that you’d stupidly believed he was in danger. But hearing the sincerity in his voice softened the edges of your irritation just a smidge.
"Yeah," you said, looking down at the chrysanthemum on the table. "I did too."
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For over five minutes, you stood frozen in the narrow hallway of a walk-up on Joralemon Street.
In one hand, you clutched a crumpled MapQuest printout. In the other, a bottle of Cabernet Sauvignon. The wine had been a last-minute addition. Or rather, your mother's. Even now, years into adulthood, her voice lived rent-free in your head.
“You do not show up to someone's home empty-handed. That is not how I raised you.”
You'd stopped at the nearest liquor store on your drive over, grabbing the first bottle that looked expensive enough to pass as a thoughtful gesture. Now, standing in front of Frank's chipped apartment door, you were beginning to question the decision.
In the four months you’d known him, you'd never seen him touch anything that wasn't a can of Diet Coke or a Dunkin' coffee so overloaded with sugar it was practically dessert. The bottle suddenly felt ridiculous. In what world would Frank Iero drink a full-bodied wine?
You checked your watch. 6:11 PM.
Just knock.
It was a simple action, one you'd performed thousands of times without a second thought. Yet every time your knuckles inched toward the door, your arm gave out.
What if tonight was good too? What if the conversation flowed as easily as it had at dinner? What if every joke landed, every silence felt comfortable, and the evening stretched past the polite hour?
What if everything kept being...good?
You shifted your weight, the MapQuest printout growing damp in your palm. Swallowing down your nerves, you forced your hand forward and gave the door three firm knocks.
Silence.
Then — scrambling. The heavy thud of bare feet against a wooden floor. A muffled bang of something colliding with the wall, followed by a frantic string of curses, "Shit, shit, shit—fuck. Hold on!"
Before you could turn away, convinced you had the wrong address, the door swung open.
Frank stood in the doorway, chest rising and falling as if he'd just sprinted a mile. His hair was soaking wet, dark strands plastered to his forehead and curling at the nape of his neck. A bead of water broke free, tracing a slow line down the column of his throat, disappearing beneath the collar of a faded black t-shirt he'd thrown on inside out.
Your eyes followed the second droplet, tracking its path until it pulled you lower than intended. He wore a pair of heather-grey sweatpants that sat low on his hips, the article of clothing looking a bit too good on him.
Your eye twitched.
"Hey." He was still catching his breath, bracing a hand against the doorframe. "Sorry, I was in the shower. Lost track of time and—" His sentence died the moment he noticed the bottle in your hand. His eyebrow quirked up. "You brought wine?"
You straightened your spine, thrusting the bottle toward him. "I—yes. It's customary. To bring something. When you're invited. To someone's home. It's—my mother always—" You caught yourself mid-ramble, tightly pressing your lips together into a thin line. Stop talking. Stop. Talking.
He took the bottle, squinting at the label like it was written in a foreign language. "Cab-er-net...Sau-vig—" He gave up on the pronunciation halfway through. "Sounds fancy. You didn't have to do that."
"It's twelve-dollar liquor store wine. Not like I bought a vintage Bordeaux."
“Whatever the fuck that means,” he snorted, jerking his head for you to follow him inside. “C’mon in.”
The apartment was small. Small small. The kind of small that made your place look like it belonged in Alpine. You'd barely crossed the threshold, and you were already in the kitchen, the counters cluttered with unopened mail, cereal boxes, and an overloaded dish rack. His environment wasn’t dirty, but it was definitely lived in.
"Make yourself at home," Frank said, setting the wine bottle next to a box of Raisin Bran. "I don't think I own a corkscrew, but I'll figure something out. You want anything to eat, drink?”
"I'm fine, thank you." You politely declined, far too busy taking in your surroundings.
"You sure?" He pulled open the fridge, the door covered with band flyers, pizza coupons, and photo booth strips held up by a large New York Knicks magnet. "I got...Diet Coke. Obviously." Cans shifted and clattered. “Orange juice. My neighbor is Dominican and thinks I don’t eat enough, so I got Tostones if you're hungry...” More rustling. "I got Boca burgers in the freezer, Tofutti Cuties—"
He stopped. "Huh."
"What?"
"Nothing. Just....thought we finished these." He emerged from the fridge holding Tupperware, popping the lid to peer inside. "Had Friendsgiving a couple nights ago. Coulda sworn we wiped these out."
You eyed the container. "What is it?”
“Space cakes.” He nonchalantly tossed the container onto the counter. "My buddy Ray's girlfriend made 'em. Total hippie. Crystals, sage, talks to her plants, the whole nine. But she's insane in the kitchen. Best space cakes in Jersey, hands down."
Space cakes.
You knew about them, of course you did. But knowing and being around were two separate things. While your peers passed blunts at frat parties in New Brunswick, you were pulling all-nighters in the library, far too obsessed with maintaining a perfect GPA to experience the typical college girl life.
"Interesting." You took a step closer, peeking at the open container. The brownies looked...normal. Deep chocolate, dusted with a thick layer of powdered sugar. "What’s Ray’s girlfriend like?”
Frank pulled a Diet Coke from the fridge, closing the door with his hip. "Why? You a narc?"
"It's a simple question,” you shot back a little too quick, making yourself look exactly like a narc. "I'm here to learn about you. Your life. Your friends are part of that."
He narrowed his eyes, skeptical, the Coke can pausing halfway to his mouth. "Christa's cool. Studying culinary arts, been with Ray since forever. They're like, grossly in love. They'll probably be the first ones in our group to get married." He took a sip, shrugging. "She just makes these for special occasions."
You nodded, filing away the information. In school. Stable relationship. Reliable friend. Christa seemed safe. “And the...effects?”
Frank’s lips curled into a slow, devilish smile. "You've never smoked weed."
Your eyes snapped towards him. "That is not what I said. I'm merely asking about the physiological effects once ingested."
He barked out a laugh, "Holy shit. No way. No fuckin' way. You're using your little essay words to tell me you've never been in a room with a joint.”
"I’ve been in a room with a joint." Another lie, just as effortless as your first, claiming your schedule was too full to even be standing here. "I simply had better things to focus on."
"Uh-huh." He tilted his head, utterly delighted with his discovery. "Alright, Harvard. Space cakes are chill. They kick in slow, around an hour, hour and a half. Everything gets kind of..." he waved a hand, searching for the right word, "...soft. Warm. Brain gets quiet. It's nice."
Your brain hadn't been quiet in years. It was always running, always cataloguing, always three steps ahead. Even now, standing in his claustrophobic kitchen, the gears were still turning. The thought of it going still, even temporarily, was more appealing than you wanted to admit.
"And it's... safe?" You hated how small your voice sounded.
"Christa's been making these for years. Ray's the size of a linebacker; he needs a whole one, but—" he looked you over, considering, "—I'd give you a quarter. Maybe less."
"And... and how long does it last?"
"Three, four hours, usually. Depends." The teasing spark in his eyes shifted into something more observant. He leaned back against the counter, setting his soda aside. "Look. No pressure. We don't have to do anything. We can go through the box, listen to records, and call it a night." The reassurance came so naturally it caught you off guard. “But if you do want to try it, I've done this a hundred times. I know what to expect. I'll be here. Deal?"
Logically, trusting a man like Frank was asking for trouble. Seeing you squirm was his favorite form of entertainment, and the lipstick prank was proof of that. But the frustrating thing was, he didn’t look like he was trying to mess with you right now.
Not only was he promising safety, but he was also offering you an out.
You chewed your bottom lip.
"A quarter," you spoke up, taking a step closer. "Just a quarter."
He didn't move right away. He waited, giving you time to change your mind. When you didn't back away, only then did he reach for the container. He studied the brownies carefully, pinching off a corner, then a little more, soon presenting a dark triangle that sat in the center of his palm. “There.”
Before the second-guessing could paralyze you, you reached out and popped it into your mouth.
If you didn't know better, you'd think it was just a regular brownie. A very good brownie, actually. Rich chocolate, a slight earthiness underneath, the powdered sugar dissolving on your tongue.
"Well?" He watched your face as he reached in and pulled out a piece three times the size of yours, tossing it into his mouth with zero hesitation.
"It tastes like a brownie."
"Well yeah." He chuckled, chewing. "That's kind of the point."
You sucked the last of the powdered sugar from your fingertip while he rummaged the fridge again, pulling out an extra can of Diet Coke and setting it in front of you.
"So. You ready to see the box?"
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The couch was a hideous thing—an olive green velvet horror that looked like it was rescued from the curb. You'd claimed the far end, maintaining a safe distance. Spine straight, knees together, posture pristine.
But at some point, that pristine posture started to loosen.
Vertebra by vertebra, your spine eased into the cushions. The space between you and Frank slowly shrank. Your knee drifted closer, his shoulder found yours. Neither of you acknowledged it. Neither of you moved away.
Frank wasn’t lying; this was the quietest your minds had ever been. The noise was still there, but the volume decreased significantly. You were just here. Present with a boy listening to Stax 45s.
The box sat on the coffee table, its contents spread across. Datebooks with cracked spines, black and white photographs, stacks of vinyls, and a pair of drumsticks with F.J.I. carved crookedly into the wood.
Frank held a photograph up to the light. He'd been all smiles since the box came out, rambling excitedly about his grandfather like the man was a character straight out of a comic book.
"Here." He turned the photo toward you, practically vibrating. "This is him with The Marvelettes. I told you I wasn't lying."
You leaned in, taking it from his hand. A young Italian man in a sharp suit sat behind a drum kit, cigarette casually dangling from his lips. Posed beside him were The Marvelettes, their smiles brighter than their sequined dresses.
"He’s handsome.” You traced the curve of his smile, picking up the similarities between him and Frank. The shape of the eyes, the set of the mouth, that particular look of trouble.
"Right?" Frank leaned in to look at it again, his shoulder pressing more firmly against yours. "My dad said the one on the left really liked him. Everyone liked him. He was, like—the guy, y'know? The one everyone wanted at their session. He could play anything."
You handed the photo back, and he was already reaching for the next one. A grainy snapshot of his grandfather caught mid-sentence. A photoshoot with his band, instruments gleaming under stage lights. And then, a colour photo. A small Frank cradled in the same man's arms. His grandfather was older here, but his smile was still radiant as chubby toddler hands cupped his weathered face.
The datebooks came next, held with thick rubber bands. Frank slipped one free and opened it to a random page.
"When I was a kid," he said, carefully moving through the yellowed paper, "I'd go to my grandmother's house and sit in her kitchen for hours reading my dad's and grandfather's datebooks."
He turned the book toward you, the pages filled with neat cursive.
ℛℯ𝒽ℯ𝒶𝓇𝓈𝒶𝓁 - 7𝓅𝓂.
𝒢𝒾ℊ 𝒶𝓉 𝒜𝓈𝒷𝓊𝓇𝓎 𝒫𝒶𝓇𝓀 𝒞ℴ𝓃𝓋ℯ𝓃𝓉𝒾ℴ𝓃 ℋ𝒶𝓁𝓁 - 10𝓅𝓂.
𝒞𝒶𝓁𝓁 ℳ𝒶𝓇𝒾𝒶.
"They were like superheroes to me. Cool-ass dudes going on cool-ass adventures. Every day was something new."
You found yourself watching him more than the datebook, watching how his eyes moved across the page like he was reading it for the first time. While the edible softened your walls, it had dissolved his entirely.
"Oh man—" He tapped a page, 𝒟𝓇𝓊𝓂 ℒℯ𝓈𝓈ℴ𝓃𝓈 𝓌/ ℱ𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓀𝒾ℯ - 1𝓅𝓂. "He tried to teach me drums, but it never clicked. Then my mom moved me to piano — hated that more. Ended up playing saxophone—"
A snort escaped before you could stop it.
Frank's head snapped up. "Whoa." His eyes went wide. "What was that?"
"Nothing." You reached for your Diet Coke, pressing your lips together, shoulders already starting to shake. You took a sip to cover it, but the fizz hit wrong, and your composure shattered.
The laugh came out raw and ugly, bypassing every filter you'd ever built. Your hand flew to your mouth, but another one escaped, louder and more nasally than the first.
The sound should have mortified you; you couldn’t remember the last time you laughed like this in front of another person. But with your brain working at a gentle hum, shame was unable to get through to you. Instead, the laugh just felt...nice. Like scratching an itch you'd been ignoring for years.
"I've never heard you make that sound." Frank stared at you as if you'd just done something extraordinary. "You sound like a total nerd."
"I'm the nerd?" You scoffed, pointing a finger at your own chest in disbelief. "You were a band kid lugging around a saxophone."
"It was shiny." He said it like this was obvious, like the allure of a shiny instrument required no further explanation. "I thought it was sick. Lasted about a month before I figured out you can't smoke if you're playing wind instruments. Fuck that, dude.”
The mental image was clear as day: a scrawny, teenage Frank chain-smoking under the bleachers, crushing a cigarette before rushing to band class with an oversized case bumping against his knees. You pressed your lips together, but it was useless.
"Okay, fine." You set the soda down, swallowing the last of the fizz. "How'd you end up on guitar, then?"
He set the datebook down and picked up one of the 45s, turning it over in his hands before pushing himself up from the couch. "My dad," he answered, carefully sliding the record from its paper sleeve. "Found a bunch of punk cassettes under my bed. Got me a Fernandes Strat for my eleventh birthday."
He placed the record on the turntable. A soft pop-hiss crackled through the speakers, and then Sam Cooke's velvety voice filled the apartment.
"I had this band in high school—Steve Weil and the Disco Kings." He shook his head, grinning at the memory as he plopped back onto the couch beside you. "Oh, man. We were terrible. But we were so convinced we were the next big thing. We used to guilt-trip people into letting us play. Played a two-hour set once at this girl's sweet sixteen. She hated me."
“I would’ve gotten along with her.”
"Yeah, you would’ve." He chuckled. "You two would've been best friends plotting my demise."
His gaze fixed on the spinning record as he reminisced, his fingers tapping the rhythm against his knee. "But I was happy," he said, almost to himself. "Like...actually happy. For once in my life, I was excited to wake up in the morning."
You shifted in your seat, pulling your legs up to face him properly. "What do you mean, for once?"
Frank didn't answer right away. He moved his attention from the spinning record up to the ceiling, staring at its popcorn texture like the answer might be written somewhere up there.
"Take away music, I'm really not good at anything else,” he admitted quietly. “Makes me scared sometimes.”
You went still.
Frank Iero, scared?
The same Frank who walked into every room like he owned it. Who'd stood in Mel's break room and aimed that word at you like a dart, certain it would stick.
You'd spent days outrunning it. The show. The buttons. The parking lot. Every reckless, uncharacteristic thing you've done since Monday had been an attempt to prove that word didn't belong to you.
It had never once occurred to you to turn it around.
"You always know what you're doing,” he continued, eyes still fixed on the ceiling. “Like, you get dropped into any situation and you just...know. How to handle it. What to say. Which fork to use." A thoughtful pause. "Must be nice."
It should have felt like a compliment. Instead, it felt like a slap. "I don't."
He nudged your shoulder. "C'mon. Don't do the modest thing. You've got the whole world mapped out. Five-year plan, ten-year plan—probably a fifty-year plan hidden somewhere."
"Frank." You moved your shoulder away. "I'm not being modest."
He turned his head, looking at you with an expression so certain, so convinced that you were being humble. Something about that certainty and his inability to see how insulting he was being made you snap.
“You don’t get to throw that word at me,” your words came out sharp and direct, “You don’t get to call me scared and then act like you’ve been carrying it around too.”
He opened his mouth to backtrack, but you steamrolled over him.
“’You’ve got the whole world mapped out.’” You mocked his tone, the words tasting bitter. “I don’t belong anywhere, Frank. Do you not get that? Do you not see how much I have to plan? Everything I do is calculated. Every word, every outfit—God forbid I breathe wrong because I have to plan that out too.”
The ugly truth finally surfaced, pouring out before you could stop it.
"I don't know what I'm doing, I can't afford to not know. But you can. You can be loud. You can say the wrong thing. You can take up all the space in the world, and nobody—" You looked away, frustrated by the sudden blur in your vision. You hated this. You hated how weak you felt, how your own body was betraying you in front of him of all people.
Your hand curled into a tight fist. “Nobody makes you prove you’re worthy to exist. They just make room for you.”
Frank didn't answer. There was no deflection or an attempt at making things better. It was irrational; you knew it. Realistically, silence was the right answer, but it only fueled the fire.
"Oh, so now you want to be quiet?” You choked out. “It's so frustrating because I want that, I want to be seen so badly I can't stand it sometimes. That freedom. That permission to just be. You have it, and you don't even—" Your voice cracked, a sound so weak that it instantly made you armor up. "God. All of you idiots take it for granted. I hate you people.”
Frank remained completely quiet.
The silence ate you alive. You pressed the heels of your hands against your eyes. What is wrong with you? You’d never lost control like that. Not once. And for what? To prove a point? To win an argument from Monday?
"I didn't mean—" you started, desperate to take everything back.
"Hey—"
"—to say all of that. I don't even know why I—" You shook your head, scrambling to string together something that was slightly comprehensible. "I don't do this. I don’t. God, please don’t...don’t see me as an angry cliché now. I’m angry, but I’m not a stereotype—"
"Hey—"
"—I'm too high, I look crazy. I need to go.”
You fumbled for your purse at the far end of the couch, already calculating the fastest route home. But before you could stand, Frank’s hand reached out, gently closing around your wrist. “Stay.”
You shook your head, trying to wiggle away. But he held on, tracing slow, steady circles against you — the same grounding motion he'd used at the restaurant to calm your frantic nerves. Cautiously, he shifted closer on the sagging cushions. “I don't want you to go.”
"Frank—"
“I really don’t.”
You opened your mouth to fight him, but the words died the second you looked into his eyes. You’d just vomited your deepest insecurities all over a perfectly good evening, and he was looking at you like you were still you. Like nothing you'd handed him tonight had changed his view.
His eyes dropped briefly to your lips, then flicked back up. A silent question hung in the charged air between you. You held his gaze, unable to hide what your eyes were already saying.
Leaning in, his mouth found yours. The touch of his lips was a testing pressure, as if he was terrified of spooking you further. The kiss was patient. It was kind. It was the opposite of everything you'd ever known.
Kissing him back was a graceless mess, your emotions and the high making your coordination clumsy. Your angle was wrong, your noses awkwardly bumping. You caught his lip ring twice, the cool metal clicking against your teeth. The tears hadn't stopped either, salt mixing with the faint taste of chocolate and Diet Coke lingering on his tongue.
When he pulled back it was only an inch, his lips still brushing yours as he spoke.
"People make room," he murmured against you, "But they don't listen. They don't actually give a shit about what I'm saying."
You shot him a watery glare, warning him to choose his next words carefully. “Don’t irritate me right now, Frank.”
“No—listen.” Insistent, he pressed his forehead against yours. “It was fucked up of me to act like life is a cakewalk for you. I’m not gonna pretend I get it, I don’t. But just hear me out for a second.”
You let out a tired sigh, but you didn’t pull away.
“People make you feel like you don’t belong, and I’m sorry I brushed that off. That was a dick move,” he started, his thumb still tracing your wrist. “But fuck man...It’s like you walk into a room and you make people respect you. Even when they want you to leave or think they know you, you command respect.”
He paused, gathering his thoughts.
"I don't have that. Before I can even get a word out, everyone’s already made up their mind about me. Loud kid from the shitty part of town. Dropout. Cheech's son who can't get behind a drum kit and carry on the Iero legacy—" He caught himself, shrugging off whatever it was he was about to say. "Whatever. Point is, it doesn’t matter what comes out of my mouth. Doesn't matter how hard I try. Nobody's actually listening."
He looked up at you, “You’re so smart,” he continued, his eyes filled with pure sincerity. "Like, actually smart. You think I've got freedom? Those degrees you’re getting? That’s your ticket out of Jersey.”
He gave your wrist a squeeze. “And you’re gonna make it out. You’re the only person I know who actually will. And that’s...” He trailed off, picturing your bright, tangible future. “That’s really fucking cool.”
The words kept coming, spilling out with the same urgency as your own confession.
“You’re gonna get your master’s or some fancy title I never knew existed. End up somewhere insane like California or New York, miles away from all these assholes. Be a real cool girl. The coolest girl.” A smile tugged at his mouth, never quite reaching his eyes. "Send me a postcard so I don’t lose my mind. I'll probably be a mailman or some shit. I’m fucked if music doesn’t work for me. Fuck man. Failed guitarist delivering mail.” A short pause. “Tape a gun to the postcard while you’re at it.”
He laughed quietly at his own joke.
You didn’t laugh.
You both knew he wasn’t joking.
For so long, you'd been certain you knew exactly who Frank Iero was. You misread his loud, brash exterior and the effortless way he claimed space as arrogant. An arrogance born from never having to justify your existence. It never crossed your mind that it was all an act, that he was performing just like you.
Reaching up, you held his face in both of your hands. His skin was warm, the texture of his stubble rough against your fingertips. You held him there, forehead to forehead, and took the time to look at him. You didn’t look at the guitarist or the boy who lived to get under your skin. You looked directly at the boy who didn’t know where he belonged.
“Someone's listening, Frank,” you whispered, brushing your thumb across his cheekbone. “Someone’s listening.”
He let out a low, self-deprecating huff. "Oh yeah, who?”
Rather than answering, you leaned in and showed him.
His jaw tightened under your palms, his whole body going still, unsure if this was real or some kind of edible-fueled hallucination. But the second he realized that this was real, he kissed you back like a starving man.
This kiss was hungrier than the first, the two of you sharing a craving that went beyond physical. It was a craving to be known. To know. To consume a person whole and understand them from the inside out.
He hooked an arm around your waist and hoisted you onto his lap in one smooth motion. Your hands were everywhere, eager to learn the shape of him. They slid over his chest, across his shoulders, and into the thick curls at the nape of his neck.
Your bodies were flush together, and it still didn’t feel like it was enough. Even if you could crack his ribs open and crawl inside, it still wouldn’t feel enough. Mindlessly, your hips rolled into him, chasing a feeling you didn’t have the words for. But with that roll, you met a hard line pressing against your inner thigh.
You gasped into his mouth, startled by your finding.
Frank pulled back instantly, his eyes wide. “Fuck—I’m sorry. I’m—tell me to stop, we can totally stop.”
It was bold. Far too bold for the girl who’d stood frozen in his hallway two hours ago, palms sweaty, rehearsing how to knock on a door. But that girl felt like a distant memory right now.
Instead of pulling away, you rolled your hips again, deliberately grinding against the hard line of him. His whole body jolted; a ragged “Fuck,” tore from his throat. He tipped his head back, a breathy laugh breaking free. “Yeah—yeah, okay. Fuck.”
Tightening his grip around your waist, he shifted his weight, rolling the two of you over. The sudden change in position caught you off guard, punching out one of those god-awful snorts of yours. Frank hovered over you, looking down at you like he’d been waiting all night to hear that sound again. “There she is.”
He pressed featherlight kisses across your face, across the curve of your brow, the heated apples of your cheeks, and down the long line of your throat.
As his lips trailed lower, his hand found the hem of your shirt. With a tug, he lifted it up and over your head, tossing it aside with the flick of his wrist. His eyes traced the newly exposed skin before his mouth followed the path, planting open-mouth kisses from your collarbone down to your quivering stomach.
He unbuttoned your jeans and hooked his thumbs into the waistband. You lifted your hips, helping him slide off the denim and lace. Once you were free, his mouth continued to worship. He kissed the soft arch of your right foot, working his way up the muscle of your calf. He repeated the ritual on your left leg, your muscles tightening as he inched closer to your core. He paused, feeling the sudden tension, "You okay?”
The boldness you’d displayed was starting to evaporate.
Just minutes ago, you were in complete control. Fully clothed, straddling him, dictating the pace. Now, stripped bare and pinned under his weight, the power shifted.
You didn’t want to stop, but handing over the one thing that has ever brought you comfort was something you weren’t sure you were ready for.
Frank watched you disappear back into your own head. Gently, he lowered your leg back down and reached for both of your hands.
“It’s just me,” he whispered, lacing his fingers through yours. “It’s just Frank.”
He dipped his head, pressing a soft, closed-mouth kiss against your folds. His eyes lifted immediately, searching your face for any sign of discomfort. Your stomach twisted into a nervous knot. Unable to hold his gaze, you squeezed your eyes shut and tightened your grip on his hands.
Frank didn’t mind the grip; if anything, he welcomed it. “You’re okay.” He cooed, treating your comfort like it was his only job in the world. With every patient kiss, the tension in your thighs melted away, and your grip on his fingers eased up.
Feeling you relax, he progressed.
His tongue parted you, a slow drag that made a high-pitched sound escape your throat. Frank reveled in that sound. With every flat lick and kiss, he listened. He adjusted his pressure and angle based on the tiny sounds you made, treating your body like an instrument he was determined to master.
“Frank—"
His grip on your right hand shifted, slipping free from your clutch. The sudden loss of contact made you whine in protest, needing some form of comfort during an act like this.
“I got you,” he promised, pressing a reassuring kiss against your thigh. “I’m right here. Just need my hand back for a second. Trust me.”
With his now free hand, he rubbed against your entrance, coating a finger with your wetness before sinking inside. The stretch made you gasp as he curled upward, hitting a spot your own fingers could never quite reach.
Your thighs immediately clamped together, caging his head.
He hummed with approval, “Yeah, that’s it. Hold me still.”
Frank’s mouth sealed over your clit, sucking the bundle of nerves while his finger kept up a steady rhythm. Your brain short-circuited, the dual sensation making you see stars. A shaky hand shot out, gripping a handful of his hair to push him deeper. He let out a groan, in love with the pain you inflicted upon him. Craving more of those tugs, he slipped in a second finger, cursing under his breath feeling another yank.
Your legs began to shake uncontrollably. The fluttering in your stomach was now a violent twitch, warning you of the building pressure. Your hips moved against his mouth, chasing the release you could feel coming.
“Frank —” you tried to warn him, choking on your own words. “Frank, m’gonna—”
Your head tilted back as your orgasm crashed through you, a series of electrifying pulses that made your toes curl and your back arch off the couch. But that wasn’t enough for Frank. His mouth remained sealed over your clit, his fingers working ruthlessly to milk every last tremor from your body.
“O-Offa me, Frank—!” you sobbed, pushing weakly at his head. “P-Please—please—”
He ignored your pleas, pulling out one last desperate sob before withdrawing his fingers with a wet pop. He looked up at you from between your thighs with a glistening face, a proud grin plastered across his lips as if he’d just won the lottery. Your face burned, mortified with your release and how proudly he wore the evidence.
“Stop looking at me,” you attempted to sound stern, but your voice embarrassingly cracked.
Far too pleased with himself, he pushed up from your thighs to meet your lips. The taste of yourself was heavy on his tongue, musky yet intimately sweet. “You’re so fuckin' pretty,” he murmured against your mouth, “So pretty and mean.”
“I’m not mean—” Your words were cut short, a breathy sigh leaving you as his teeth found the curve of your jaw.
“Always two seconds away from biting my fuckin’ head off.” He pressed his full weight into you, the clothed, hard line of his length rubbing against your wet, overstimulated core. You hooked your legs around his hips, rocking up to meet him. His mouth traveled down to your throat, his voice tickling your pulse point as he hummed along to the record softly spinning on the turntable.
"For nothing else will matter, in the world, as long as I have you—"
But mid-lyric, the humming slowed. Then stopped.
Frank pulled back just enough to look at you. The playful grin was still there, but something in his face had gone soft. It was the same softness he wore when holding his grandfather’s photograph, as if he looked long enough, he could somehow live in the moment forever.
“I said stop looking at me.” You turned your head, the weight of his stare making you feel more naked than you already were. “And take your stupid shirt off. Be fair.”
He didn’t argue. He sat back on his heels and grabbed the hem of his shirt, pulling it up and over his head.
You blinked.
You knew he was tattooed; you’d seen his arms and that dreadful spot on his neck. But you assumed that was the extent of it.
Oh, how you were wrong.
You drank in the lean muscle of his body, your eyes tracing the ink that decorated his torso. As he turned to toss his shirt aside, you caught a glimpse of a piece that spanned his shoulder blades, thick dark lines you wouldn’t mind learning by touch.
With your legs still loosely wrapped around his hips, you dragged your foot against the waistband of his sweatpants. A silent request for further fairness.
“Bossy.” He chuckled, pushing the cotton low enough to free himself.
You swallowed, your mouth going dry.
He wasn’t huge, but he was thicker than you expected. You watched as he gave himself a few slow strokes, the head flushed a dark pink, veins prominent along the length. The sight of him like that, fully hard and preparing himself for you, sobered you up in an instant. Another spike of fear hit you.
Fueled by anxiety, you reached out, quickly grabbing the hand that held you through your first orgasm. Puzzled, Frank glanced down at your joined hands. But slowly, he understood. He brought your intertwined hands up to his mouth, pressing a kiss to your knuckles.
With his other hand still wrapped around his cock, he carefully guided himself towards your entrance. You felt the warm, heavy pressure of him rub against you, making you instinctively clench around nothing.
"Easy," he comforted, resting his forehead against yours. "S’just me. Just Frank.”
Gradually, he sank inside.
You squeezed your eyes shut, your nails biting into the back of his hand. For a second, it was too much—physically, emotionally, the fear you felt threatening to swallow you whole. But Frank didn’t rush. He remained perfectly still inside you, giving your body the time it needed to comfortably adjust and accept him.
“Look at me.”
You stubbornly shook your head, turning to bury your face into the couch cushion. Absolutely not, not like this.
“Cmon.” His tone was careful and slow, approaching you like a wild creature that might bolt if he made the wrong move. “Just a little. One small peek. For me?”
Your jaw tightened, your eyes squeezing even tighter, a last-minute attempt to regain some type of control. But hearing his voice, so soft, so patient, attempting to reason with you made the attempt feel silly. Taking a deep breath, you forced your eyes open, meeting a pair of eyes so fond of you.
“There’s the pretty girl.”
He slid nearly all the way out, a slow, torturous withdrawal before burying himself back inside. The stretch punched all the air from your lungs, your inner walls clenching around him in a vice-like grip. “Yeah?” He repeated the movement, completely sliding out and filling you right back up. “You like being taken care of?”
You felt yourself further shy away, because the truth was, you did. Underneath all those rigid layers of yours, a part of you craved this. Craved to be held, to be soothed, to have your rawest self handled by gentle hands.
“That’s it,” his hips found a rhythm, his pelvis brushing against your swollen clit with every stroke. “Just let me take care of you.”
Chest to chest, heartbeat to heartbeat, Frank moved inside you with deep, unhurried thrusts. Your interlaced hands rested against the cushion beside your head, his thumb tracing those reassuring circles against your knuckles. The room filled with the sound of your shaky synchronized breaths, accompanying the low soulful hum of the record in the background, singing about love and bone-deep desire.
The tears came back, hot streaks tracking down your temples into your hairline. You’d already cried, cried way too much for a single night. The fact that you still couldn't stop made you furious with yourself. Yet Frank didn’t flinch. Instead of conveying a look of disgust like you still expected him to feel, his expression remained loving, watching you unfurl before him.
“You’re so sensitive.” He observed, pressing a series of kisses against your cheek, his teeth lightly nipping the damp flesh. “Big, scary tough girl...just a crybaby under all that mean.”
You turned into the bite, your lips fixing into a wobbly pout rather than forming a nasty retort.
“Let it out,” he whispered, his tongue soothing the spot his teeth had bruised. “I got you.”
He adjusted the tilt of his hips, searching, carefully listening to your body until he found that spot he’d discovered earlier with his fingers. He pressed against it with his thick head, giving the spot his full, undivided attention. You nearly crushed the bones of his hand trying to hold yourself together for just a few seconds longer, wanting to relish the feeling of him. "F-Frank, you’re gonna make me cum too fast—"
Frank was lost in the tight wet heat of you. "That’s it," he breathed, driving into you with a brand new intensity. "Fuck, that pussy squeezing my dick so good, so good for me. Y’gonna cum for me again? Gonna show me how much of a crybaby you really are?”
His words were filthy, yet ever so tender. You cradled his head as he buried his face in the crook of your neck, your fingers tangling in his disheveled brown curls. You could feel Frank losing his composure, his moans primal beside your ear as the wet sound of flesh on flesh grew louder.
"Where?" His voice was strained, hanging by a thread. "Where do you want me to cum? Tell me—fuck—tell me where you want it."
The question captured your heart, squeezing it with a death grip. In a moment where most men would simply take, he was giving you the choice. Your legs wrapped tighter around him, pulling him as deep as humanly possible. “Inside,” you begged, lips pressed to his sweaty temple. “Please—inside.”
His hips stuttered, the sweet sound of your voice granting him permission shattering the remains of his control. He drove into you three more times, three final animalistic thrusts before spilling inside. A long, guttural groan followed as he emptied himself, the hot rush of his climax triggering your own. Your second orgasm hit, stronger and more intimate than the first, your bodies locking together in a shuddering embrace.
For a moment suspended in time, the two of you held each other in silence, the air thick with the scent of sex. Frank was the first one to move. Still buried inside you, he propped himself up on his elbows. His face was flushed a deep rose, the heat making the freckles scattered across his nose more prominent. His hair stuck up in wild tufts from where you grabbed, and his eyes were wide, bright, and alert. Even wrecked, he still vibrated with too much energy that felt impossible for a human.
“What if I got 07/16/03 tatted on me?”
You blinked a few times, your brain too slow to follow. “...What?”
“07/16/03.” He tapped his chest, right over his heart, “Right here.”
You rubbed a hand over your face; for a split second, you regretted having sex this man. The last thing you wanted to discuss post-orgasm was his impulsivity. “Why? Why are you asking me stupid shit right now?”
“I don’t think it's stupid.” Frank shrugged, “It’s a good date.”
“Then get a calendar,” you scoffed, your voice regaining its bite. “You can look at the date all day instead of tattooing a random day of the week on your chest.”
“It’s not a random day,” he countered, visibly amused with how quick you were to rile up. “It's the day my life got interesting.”
You let out a defeated sigh, but you took the bait anyway, giving him a chance to explain this ever-so-important tattoo. “Fine. What could have possibly happened that’s worth tattooing a date?”
He tilted his head, his amusement morphing into something more genuine.
“It’s the day I met you,” he said simply. “The day we became coworkers.”
His words hit you, pulling you back in time.
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July 16th, 2003.
A sweltering Wednesday afternoon at Peaceful Mel’s Records. For days, Mel had been talking about his newest hire, raving about him like he was the best thing since sliced bread. “You’re gonna love him, kid,” he said, waving a fresh stick of patchouli incense, “Reminds me of you. Sharp. Smart with his music. He’s gonna bring good energy to this place.”
You expected someone precise. Knowledgeable. Someone with chic taste you could rub shoulders with during lunch.
You did not expect someone like Frank.
The moment you saw him, you looked at Mel like he’d lost his mind.
Frank walked in like he already owned the place, his presence bigger than the shop itself. Stretched ears, jeans sagged too low, and God was he a talker—already running his mouth too much for your liking.
What could someone like him possibly offer here? And more importantly, how did Mel see you in that?
Since day one, he pestered you.
Despite your efforts to keep all interactions minimal, he was like a pesky fruit fly, and you were his summer fruit of choice. He'd throw stale jokes that never landed. He’d sprinkle in unsolicited commentary on how thoroughly you vacuumed the shop’s rug. He’d deliver Weird New Jersey facts before your first sip of morning coffee. Each attempt at communication was met with an icy glare, hoping he’d eventually get the hint.
He didn’t; the disdain in your eyes only attracted him more.
By the end of the month, Frank finally managed to grab your attention. Not because he’d suddenly earned it, but because he touched something he had no right to lay his hands on.
Towards the end of every month, you and Mel had a ritual. Over a cup of tea, you would stay after hours with a distributor catalog spread out between you, hunting albums that deserved a home at Peaceful Mel’s. Mel trusted your ear, constantly telling customers and anyone that would listen how you were his right hand. It was your favorite part of the job. It made you feel seen. It made you feel like your opinion truly mattered.
However, this month, there was no catalog waiting for you.
"Already handled it, sweetheart,” Mel patted your back, “Let Frank take a crack at it. A way to welcome him to the team, yknow?”
Your eye twitched. No, no, you didn’t know.
The shipment arrived Friday morning. Before the shop opened, you and Frank sat in the stockroom, surrounded by stacks of unopened boxes. Grabbing a box cutter, you got to work.
Immediately, your stomach sank.
Shai Hulud, Avail, Converge.
You checked the next box, then the one after that. Surely there had been a mistake. Perhaps a shipping error? Someone must have received Mel’s order; no way he greenlighted this.
“Fuck yeah, dude.” Frank was elbow deep in his box, pulling out CDs like it was Christmas morning. “Oh man, I want to take this whole box home. This is sick.”
Your eyes moved from the box, to Frank, then back to the box. This can’t be....
“Are you responsible for this?”
Frank looked up, “What do you mean?”
You held up a CD. “What is this?”
“Good music?” It still wasn’t clicking, his head tilting like a confused dog. “Mel let me pick out—”
“Good music!” A humorless laugh echoed in the tiny room. “Yes yes, of course! I’m sure our clientele will just love—” you checked the title “Songs About Fucking. Mel hired a real expert.”
The excitement on Frank’s face disappeared. “Whoa, slow your roll. I just thought the floor needed variety. It was looking...stale, no offense.”
“No offense?” You stood up, gripping the CD tight enough to crack its plastic. “Look. I’ve kept my mouth shut since the day you got here. But when it comes to the music in this store, I refuse to let someone who has been here for two weeks think they have the freedom to change things.” You took a step closer. “There are rules here. There is order here. I don’t have time for whatever this is.”
Frank stared at you like you'd suddenly sprouted a second head.
“It’s good music, that’s what it is.” He repeated, rising to his feet. “I know what I’m doing; that’s why I got hired. Maybe you should actually listen to it before you start running your mouth.”
You were going to kill Mel.
Comparing you to Frank was one insult. But handing over your monthly ritual to some random white boy that called your carefully curated work stale? That wasn’t just disrespect. It was betrayal.
“There is nothing here worth listening to and it will show in this month's income report.”
Frank didn’t back down. “Are you deaf? I said listen to it. You can’t have a real opinion on something you know nothing about. Listen and maybe then you’ll get it.”
You rolled your eyes. “I should be saying the same to you. How dare you call my selections stale when I know for a fact you’ve never listened to Françoise Hardy a day in your life.”
Frank let out a dry, challenging laugh. “Yknow what? Let's trade.”
“What?”
“Trade.” He tapped the CD still clutched in your hand. “You listen to Big Black. I’ll listen to Fran—whoever the fuck. We report back Monday morning.”
You stared at him. The offer was childish, a complete waste of time. But the urge to prove him wrong, to restore order, was strong enough to blur logic. “Fine.”
July 16th was the day you had kissed your peace goodbye.
To him, it was a day worth tattooing.
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“You still with me?”
Frank’s voice pulled you back from the dusty stockroom into his apartment, his face hovering above yours. You stared at the finger still pressed to his chest, imagining the numbers marking his skin.
07/16/03.
Bold, black ink right above his beating heart.
“You’re high, and you’re being reckless,” you spoke up, attempting to shake some sense into him. “Ink is permanent, Frank.”
“So is meeting you.”
He said it with such certainty, like it was some law of the universe not even you could dispute. Before you could formulate another response, he lowered his face back into the crook of your neck, his hips beginning to move again. It wasn’t the frantic pace of a man chasing another climax. It was the pace of a man savoring the woman he’d chosen the moment he saw her.
“Think about it,” he hummed against the shell of your ear, “Don’t gotta decide now. Just....think about it.”
Your brain tried to do what it always did when faced with vulnerability: create distance and start an argument. It wanted to list your differences. To remind him, and yourself, that you were difficult. To highlight that your worlds were never meant to collide and how it would be logical to keep things at arm's length.
But for the first time in your life, you questioned the logic. Rather than immediately building a wall, you stopped and asked yourself a question you’d spent your life avoiding.
What do you want?
Outside the structure. Outside the rules. Outside of that lonely bubble of yours that kept you safe.
What was it that you truly wanted?
You thought about the napkin.
You thought about the night in Bloomfield.
You thought about the Pasta Shop and the stolen chrysanthemum in your hair.
"This five-year plan... it got any space in it?"
You wrapped your arms around him and closed your eyes.
