why the hell does hanging out with you feel like walking a tightrope? you’ll be fine for a bit and then next thing i know you’re acting like you hate me. am i that hard to be around? do i annoy you? did i upset you and not notice? i feel like im constantly overthinking every word and action just to appease you so you’ll act like my friend. sometimes i feel like i’ve been a perfect friend all day but you still just ignore me. i thought we were closer than that. but nowadays you seem to care about your other friends more anyways. i’m an afterthought, and obviously a very reluctant one. you blow me off to go talk to your other friends and you’ll be so happy to see them. you both hug and laugh and I’m left there to fucking watch. and when you’re around me, you just seem done, like i ruin your day if you talk to me too long. i dunno. it just feels like you don’t care sometimes. well a lot of times. and i’m such a coward because here i am posting about it and not telling you. i don’t want our friendship to end, because when you are good, dammit you’re good. there’s so many memories and every time i’m mad at you, i just remember how much fun we have together. part of me wishes maybe you’ll finally snap and tell me what’s on you’re mind. why you’ve been hating me so much recently. if you told me what i was doing wrong, I’d devote so much time to fixing myself. i know I should tell you how I feel, but friendship is a two way street and if you can’t tell me why you’ve been acting different..idk. I just want a stable friendship for once.