#iloveyoudaddy

[yosoyzaelin]

Eternally

[youareinsidemymind]

Happy first Halloween Yuki! Sorry hooman! Only one black cat allowed in this house! Yuki: the bat cat . : . : . : #catdad #blackcat #halloween #pet #petsofinstagram #catdaddy #gayboy #yyc #kitten #batcat #costume #iloveyoudaddy #prouddaddy https://www.instagram.com/p/CHBu4m8hF-R/?igshid=nilb1ssf16ys

[la-bella-strega]

Returning to the Craft

It’s been a bit of a dry spell (no pun intended - but by all means if it gave you a chuckle I’m glad) but I haven’t been very active in my practice lately. It’s been a HOT minute and so many things has happened in my life. What a hell of a year - not just for myself but SO many people to be honest !! I literally HATE 2020 and can’t wait for it be finally over. In this year alone - I have lost my job, lost my home ( had to move out of the apartment - after I lost my job I had to find another position immediately and it wasn’t sustaining our way of living any longer), and the GREATEST LOSS - I lost my father to cancer - 3 DAYS before my 30th birthday - one of the biggest birthdays I had been looking forwards to in my entire life ( I have my reasons - but because this is a public blog, I’ll leave it at that). Oh an get this … we had to have the wake for him ON my actual 30th birthday … do you know what it’s like to have to say good bye to one of your BEST FRIENDS who is also your parent - ON YOUR BIRTHDAY AND HAVE ABSENTEE family members WISH you a Happy Birthday followed with sly comments - I can’t stand my father’s side of the family. They were never there for us growing us and I’m GLAD we didn’t have them stand with use during “Calling Hours”. It’s reserved for FAMILY after all - no strangers that bare a family name. I don’t know what I’m going to do without him - how I’m going to go one without him; in the physical realm anyways. He’s already sent me a couple signs and while I find comfort in that - there will never be a substitute of having me father physically here with me. We we’re suppose to dance to “Butterfly Kisses” together at my wedding, and break into an upbeat dance, he was suppose to give this moving wedding toast and bounce his grandchildren on his knee. I have been robbed and lost al joy an all the things I once done - I haven’t cracked my journal this entire year - I think I wrote one entry but lets face it - better to just start fresh next year now … my great accomplishments as far as hobbies go... finishing  ONE book. So far for reading “20 books for 2020″. I don’t even feel connected to my tarot cards anymore … nothing …. and the picture of him or seeing his memorial in the house - just brings me to TEARS. 

            I’ve decided that I want to return to my craft though - I REALLY do, reconnect with nature - am I still Catholic ? I mean … yes … but BOY am I pissed at God right now … it wasn’t a peaceful death … I can tell you one thing, there were three people holding me father’s hand when he passed …. I didn’t see God there sitting at he bed side … I DID see my father cross into Heaven over a “Rainbow Bridge” I know how that sounds - but it REALLY did happen, so I know he’s a peace now … but I’m positive he still around. He’s already sent me some signs with Blue Jays - but GOD do I miss him. I LOVE YOU DADDY. 

[kruxofkate]

TOUCHED.

Today, I broke into tears while at work. I just read something sentimental from twitter and this girl tweeted that his father came across her room and when she asked why he told her that he is just tired and that he just wants to check her to get some strength.

This breaks my heart, remembering dad and mom. At my age, I think I'm lucky enough, I still get a dose of attention and love from them. My mom whenever she had a long day or stressed, she asks for hugs and kisses out of nowhere, same with dad after work, he searches for us, does some baby talk and kiss us on the forehead. I appreciate it but I don't respond obviously. I'm a crybaby so I just joke or tease them immediately to light up the mood since I don't want to end the scene too dramatic.

Those were their little demands from us and I am aware that it is their way to regain strength after a long day of efforts and hardships for our daily living. After reading the tweet, I was reminded that I should just allow and understand them. To shower them the love and care they want because they try so hard to be strong outside but they are getting old and weak, and what they want from us is just a simple gesture of affection to continue life even if it's getting harder for them.

Currently, I became so emotional, I overthink a lot, I feel like I carry the world on my shoulder. I'm struggling with myself for some personal reasons and I handle it alone. Sometimes I think I'm a failure, got nowhere to run to and like wanted to escape from what's making this difficult for me, I feel exhausted but today's discernment makes me realize that my parents' source of power is me. I should not give up easily thus I should stand up bravely for whatever trials I'm facing and to just look at them the same way to keep going.

So, if you're reading this don't take our parents for granted, look at them as someone as a precious and exceptional gift from God. You may not feel them evidently but trust me, we are their motivation to pursue existence. We are more than just their sons and daughters, we are their anchors and we are everything.

[avucad0]

i am legitimately heartbroken over this boy and ive never even met him

[fael811]

Bright lights and daddy issues

“He may have been your father Quill, but he wasn’t your daddy.” 

Lets all take a moment to remember that sometimes the parents that love and raise you are not the ones that made you.

[amazing-desperado]

The Word "Daddy" Is One Of The Most Powerful In My Vocabulary. Growing Up I Saw Many Great Images Of Fathers On Television. I Even Knew Some In Real Life. The Greatest Example To Me, However, Was My Own Dad. He Was The Strength You Look For In A Man. He Had The Wisdom You Find From A Mentor. He Had The Love That's Found In A Father. He Laughed With Me And Cried With Me Like A Friend, For He Was My Best Friend. He Encouraged Me And Supported Me When I Was Unsure Or Afraid. He Believed In Me When I Didn't Know What To Believe. Through Daily Life I Saw His Faith At Work. I Saw How It Affected Him And How Much It Impacted Others, Including Myself. I Remember Saying Many Times In My Life When Things Weren't Going Right: "If My Daddy Said I Can Do It, Then I'm Doing It!!" And I Did It, Over And Over Again. To The Men Who Choose To Be Daddy To Their Children Or Someone Else's, Who Instill Love And A Sense Of Pride In Their Children, Who Protect Them, Guide Them, Discipline Them, And Help Them Pick Up The Broken Pieces, I Salute You. Happy Father's Day To You And My Daddy. #HappyFathersDay #Daddy #Love #Strength #Compassion #Faith #ILoveYouDaddy #GodAlmighty

[graffitiurbani]

Mia figlia di 4 anni e mezzo mi ha preparato la cena... My 4 and a half years old daughter prepared my dinner... 😍😍😍😍😍 #badguy #prouddaddy #dinner #bananaomelette #omelette #iloveyoudaddy #iloveyoutoo (presso Glücksburger Straße, Hamburg)