hey flora, i was just hit with this HUGE wave of curiosity out of the complete blue, BUT how much do you love axel?? make sure you get as detailed as possible, as i am VERY nosy and truly want to get the complete picture here.
oh boy where do i even starti love him? i love him so much. ive spent my life in fear of being fully vunerable with someone because its never played in my favor but he makes me feel so safe. nothing i say is too wild. sure, hes the first one to tell me when im being stupid but its not even out of emotional bias he just cares for me and knows when im not taking of myself enough. hes patient in that regard cause boy do i slip so much. but its been less of a grueling uphill climb with him holding my hand. even when i slip he doesnt damn me. just makes sure im safe before starting again. considering im use to be yelled at and shunned? its a blessingour relationship is a learning process, but it still touches me how much he tries when he doesnt need to. i can cook? for myself but he insists on doing as much as ill let him get away with to make my life easier when in terms of mudane things im pretty well off. theres nothing more endearing than someone who back when he could barely use his legs still trying to sneak off to make my morning tea. i love him, and i want to help him bloom so the whole world can see what i see in him john. they think hes so one sided. theres a whole person inside those walls thats so intelligent and curious in the most pure way. i love him so much. i love helping him learn. i love him teaching me how to be a better person to myself.
