#im pathetic

[uncomfycloset]

for the first time in my life i actually have zero romantic desire and actually just feel fulfilled by watching dan and phil in some parasocial craze and guys its actually peak

[bratty-gabby]

my tits would look sooooo much prettier covered in hickeys, bite marks, and bruises 😇

[artemisiamasterofnone]

tw artemisia is a useless bitch

All my friends can make

One friend draws. Her art is amazing. I could never come close. She is better than me.

Another knows absurd amounts of history. His facts are never ending. I could never come close. He is better than me.

Some codes. I dont know how that works, but its fascinating. I could never come close. They are better than me.

Another plays chess. If I try againt him, im dead, dead, dead. I could never come close. He is better than me.

A friend plays sports. He's faster, stronger. I could never come close. He is better than me.

A friend knits and crochets. She's made toys and clothes and more. I could never come close. She is better than me.

A friend embroiders. She can make amazing works of art, skilled and quick fingered. I could never come close. She is better than me.

Many a friend has a huge online community. Hundreds of people enjoy their work. I could never come close. They are better than me.

what do i have to my name?

I read? how pathetic. Media consumption.

I write? My friends online are leagues ahead of me. I cant hold a candle to them.

I craft and create? So do so many around me. Their works last. Theirs are used.

they say im smart. Am I, though? I've just been dropping and dropping.

What left? I cant stay committed to a craft, to a community, to anything consistent. Fandom obsessions barely last, ashes dispersing to the wind briefly after they once burned so brightly in my mind and heart.

I try a gimmick? The weird kid, the quirky one, what will xe do next?

Barely do i hold it up

Now I am but wilted leaves and unspilled blood held together by an ever twisting wind of fear and guilt and confusion

[rosierosesss]

WHY AM I PINING OVER SOMEONE IM NOT EVEN WITH?

[mumus-candied-bonezzz]

Who am I without derealization, empathy, procrastination, and overthinking.

[dustycoded]

i’ll be whatever you want

[losergblog]

i automatically assume everyone finds me unattractive until they tell me otherwise and then i assume that they are lying to make fun of me

[lilyandlaces-blog]

Always one step ahead