musing abt nyfic. put under a readmore bc like......spoilers?? for the fic i may never post bc anxiety?? idk lmao
okay like. it's 5 am and i need to snz but i'm thinking abt nyfic again. since it sticks to canon up until s7 it's post-cage but sam's memories of the cage are unreliable bc he blocked out a ton of stuff and he doesn't really know that the cage itself was torturing him and lucifer usually didn't have anything to do with it, esp later on, and sam's obvs reluctant at first but eventually is okay with talking to lucifer. BUT if i were to change it to the scenario i talked abt the other day, lucifer wouldn't have interacted with sam at all in the cage, the lucifer sam interacted with was a complete fabrication created by the cage (and the cage creates shit in both scenarios, like visions and voices that aren't real or are distorted versions of real events). and in this scenario sam is initially very reactive and traumatized by cage!lucifer (who is essentially the same as canon hallucifer) while lucifer is completely bewildered bc he was being tortured on his own in ways that would uniquely hurt him, so when sam says he did all this horrible stuff, he didn't do any of that, he probably wouldn't have interacted with sam at all in the cage (tho i like the idea that lucifer knows the cage since he was there for so long and maybe he was able to at least look at sam somehow). and he has to somehow convince sam of this fact bc sam very easily believed that lucifer would torture him. lucifer eventually does get through to him that that wasn't him, that was just one way the cage tortured him, and that would be how sam starts actually talking to him.
i genuinely don't know what i prefer, but if i were to use the second scenario i would have to completely rewrite at least half of their interactions in the story so far. so maybe i will just go with the first one and just explore the second idea in a different story. idk!!!!!!! will probably ask my spn friends and see what they think