#im so scared

[compressedrage]

From the Red Hood: Resurrection Instagram:

... what do you mean. what do you mean. hello?? what do you mean?

[daintyyfaery]

TW: mentions of poor mental health and drug use

Ive spent the last hour feeling this immense and indescribable dread running through my body. Typically I only feel this way when I’ve greened out and I’m scared someone might find out bc I have all these like things that If some people found out about my activities, my whole life is lowkey ruined. But anyways, I’ve been feeling dread of what might be. This whole summer I’ve been so happy bc I didn’t have to worry about crap, even my AP course work was light and I’ve managed to write out essays in a foreign language. And it was so easy bc I didn’t have to worry about the next thing, just the present. But, I’ve been scared that I’m gonna fall into a horrible mental cycle that I bared survived last year. I wish I could say I was joking about surviving, but I literally tried to take my own life at some point. I got help but the help was awful and I feel bad bc it was a free resource but the lady put her bias ahead of my struggles, so imagine a random Christian white woman talking to a queer black girl. This post really has no point or motive behind but I get this off my chest btw. But yeah, this summer was highkey good for me. My friends started to talk to me again bc I stopped waiting, I’ve started new instruments, I’ve been feeling good with my sexuality bc I had loads of support, but no matter what, the feeling of depression has always been there. But although it’s been there, the love around me was always somehow stronger, plus i kinda drowned it away with the good old trusty yart. Idk idk idk i really don’t want to be depressed again gosh the idea is gonna give me an anxiety attack

Anyways Mimi out

[emarterii]

Run ?

uhm.. ok? .. . runs away

[texturedtabletops]

running away was the first big thing i did for myself and it was years in anticipation and executed recklessly out of spite and it felt like i died back then and i still feel dead now and a year and a three months later going to this hrt clinic for the first time is the first big thing im doing for myself that actually feels good and i am sooooo fucking scared this is literally a new emotion my hands are shaking

[dexterrhymeswithexpert]

no i DONT want to open my computer

[sincerelyfell]

thought about the upcoming tour and my heart started pounding with fear im not reaDYSLSKS PLS

[rotting-faeee]

HELP I WAS LOOKING THROUGH THE DEATHGRIPPER TAG BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE THE DRAGON AND INSTEAD OF ANYTHING NORMAL I WAS MET WITH FETISH CONTENT AND PEOPLE SAYING THEY WANNA FUCK THE DEATHGRIPPER HELP EW EW EW EW EW EW NO NO NO BAD EVIL NONONO! no! That's weird! You're weird! Stop that!

[zer0brainc3lls]

WTF. GUYS. WHERE ARE YOU ALL COMING FROM IM FUCKING SCARED HELLO???

Deadass tho I might have to go get a cake or something. I was going to do something for 400 and I’ve been thinking about what I should do, and low and behold before I could decide I get to 500. I LOVE YOU ALL!!