He hates me I know it he never talks I feel like I'm a disappointment and he doesn't feel the same I'm scared that for saying my opinion and telling my side of things will push him away even more he doesn't realize why i do the shit do and when I tell him he gets pissed idk what to do I'm scared he will end our relationship becaz of me telling him what is going on I don't want us to end but he doesn't get what's happening he doesn't seem to care about anything anymore I'm freaking out 24/7 that something will happen.... I'm scared I losing him I came close already and I don't want to repeat that process I love him so much he has no idea he means so much to me he's done so much for me I can't let that go he's the best thing that's ever happened to me I'm scared no I'm terrified to lose him...