#imannoying

[redlips-curvyhips]

ok my last selfie for the night, maybe /:

[d0wncasting]

i know this might be really weird but I needed somewhere to go to just clear my head and write down everything that i am currently feeling because i’m so sick of just keeping everything bottled in. To begin, this is easily been the worst year of my life. I lost people that I never thought I would and my grandmother passed away. I often find myself reminiscing about times past just because I remember how good everything used to be. It felt like everything had a purpose and everything made sense and now, everything is but that. I’m more hurt and bitter than I ever had because finding out the truth about certain situations can make you hurt even more than just not knowing. I wish nothing hurt and I wish I could take all this pain away because out of all people to be feeling sad and hurt, it shouldn’t be me. And I always question, why do such horrible things always happen to me? Why do people find the need to betray me and hurt me even more? I just don’t understand what type of energy that I’m giving off for this to be coming back to me and hurting me so much. I wish I could explain why I give to those that don’t deserve it and I wish I had a way to stop feeling things. I feel too old and tired to be so sad and I’m sick of giving and giving but never receiving. And I feel so horrible about it. Why should I have guilt about wanting love and receiving it back when I know I’m always the one that is giving it out. I just feel like its about time that things start going my way and all this pain and hurt can just stop. I want to fall in love with someone and them to actually mean it and want to spend time with me and care for me in the way their suppose to. I want love and need extra support that I’m not getting and never will. So I guess if you’re reading this, thank you. It’s more than anyone has done for me and thats just to listen 

[hrockbampton]

why did i, do, this. it looks so dramatic ksndjskskkd

[pointnclick]

[exist-v]

I wish I had more friends on here but I accidentally stopped talking to everyone because I am a piece of trash so like hey lets be friends 

[daisi-elle]

Whatever

[sebs-nose]

i was having a rlly good day u til paul broke the internet and seb nation went up in flames. kinda done with it all? kinda wanna stop using the internet? kinda wanna jus remove myself from stanning for a while. like i’m gunna love and support seb in all he does but everyone is going crazy over this. it’s one person. who said something stupid. probably a child. seb isn’t going to drop off the face of the earth bc of one person. calm tf down.

also an analogy my brain came up with.

sebastian isn’t going to stop posting on instagram or stop interacting with fans. it’s like having a bad experience with a customer in a coffee shop and suing the owner. you can’t blame the pack for the actions of one person.

sorry for the rant. probs don’t appreciate it but i needed to put it somewhere. stan twt would come for me if i said this.

[granddaughter]

My mans might leave me for this one 🥺