#imfuckindone

[dingledinosaur]

fucking balls and bullshit

I feel very alone. Feeling alone is normal for me, but I feel very alone, and I want to be. I’ve reached a point where I just want to stop. Everything.

I’m stopping playing piano again, I’m not revising at all for school, I’m not writing essays- all I’m doing is playing Smite with Her and otherwise just doing nothing. It’s mother’s day today, and I haven’t done shit- I haven’t even gotten a card, nevermind a bouquet. I’m forgetting all of my pieces, and I feel like I’m doing badly at school. I feel like no one likes me, which means that therefore I have no friends. My only parameters for friendship, really, are that you like me- since I can’t know anyone else to like me, i presume no one does- ergo, I have no friends. Ergo, I am annoying, ergo, I am alone, ergo, I am worthless.

I feel like I’m sharing too much to this blog- I need to stop, probably, or delete it, or something. If someone found it, I don’t know what I would do.

I’m not happy. I’m not happy at all. I haven’t been happy for quite a while, but I’m particularly unhappy right now. 

[feel-thatfire]

anyone..?

does anyone elses mom constantly yell at you, blame you for all your mistakes and faults, and push u away when you try to love her and talk to you in a rude or degradeing way when you try to talk to her then when you finally break down and tell her how you feel she tells you to stop complaining. stop playing the victim. and says “oh yea im soooo mean ” in a sarcastic way. because mine does all the time.

[paexie]