there are so many lines in child of wax which i think you’d find beautiful and i know this is the third time this week i’m sharing some of them with you but. to see the heart in someone’s mouth when their tears turns into a silent scream? isn’t that beautiful? i hope you know we all see your heart too. i wish i was a weaver bird so i could knit a nest for your heart and hide a piece of rock crystal between the pine branches 🕊️
how beautiful it would be! I need a new nest, now more than ever. my heart threatens to come out — I could cough it up, or maybe vomit it, and then poke it with a stick and ask it why are you so strange? why didn't you let me settle for a simple, sweet happiness? why do you keep asking for more? are you sick? or maybe are you not a heart at all, but a shell from the deepest trenches of the sea that was never meant to be in a woman's chest? are you a star, lonely and feverish?
but I hope you are right. maybe it is a bird, and it hurts like this to learn to fly. maybe my wings are defective, maybe my lungs don't work and I'm unable to fly. maybe I'll fall to my death, too, but that's okay. it's okay.