Can you imagine being so toxic and delusional that you wish for someone you supposedly care about to break up with someone you don’t like?
Can you imagine being so happy that the person you supposedly care about is possibly crying over a broken heart because their “fans” are heartless, mindless, delusional, little children?
Can you then imagine being happy not only for the breakup but for the idea of your delusional Gay fantasies because you just know your fav is super gay and they are obviously in a gay/lesbian relationship with one of their members.
The evidence is all there right? The way they look at each other clearly means they’re in love and they’re clearly fucking by how close they are or by the touches they give each other. Because it’s not possible for two people of the same gender to be best friends when they hug each other or give a kiss on the cheek. Or not because it’s totally normal for people of certain countries in general to be known for liking and initiating skin ship because that’s how they show love and affection.
Can you imagine assuming just because two people of the same gender are touching each other in a non sexual way is considered gay and nothing more?
Seeing the way people act towards this hurts my soul. I can’t imagine being hateful towards someone online. I can’t even start a conversation with someone I know well enough because I think I’m boring and I have nothing to say. Because im overthinking everything in my head so I just stay quiet and hope the other person can keep a conversation.
I can’t imagine feeling so dead inside, more than I pretty much do on a daily basis, and sending hate and filth to people like this. To want something bad to happen because it’ll make me feel better. To hope for something like a breakup, knowing that it could hurt them so much but as long as I’m happy, right? Because my opinions, thoughts, and feelings are more important. Because I think I know how someone feels better than they know themselves. To send the most disgusting of comments.
I don’t understand this mentality.
Seeing these things makes me hate the world. Makes me want to stay inside and keep to myself because I’m so fucking scared of the real world. That I don’t think I can function in the real world. The world is so disgusting and cruel that I hate living here. That I sometimes hate living because this is a daily occurrence.
I’m just so tired knowing people seem to exist to do these awful things to others. K-Pop is something I do rely on for comfort and happiness even if briefly. But sometimes I just want to stay away from it because of people. But I can’t/won’t because it’s one of the very few bits of happiness I have. I don’t want to lose it.
I’m just so tired....
