I don't care what my parents say or anyone else, no one knows me better than myself. I happen to be acutely aware of all my strengths and weakness, whether I publicly deny them or is besides the point. I know what I can do and what I have yet to be able to do. I believe my state of self-awareness is the only thing keeping me as sane as I am and what also gives me a general advantage over other people. Because of this I generally sound conceited, but it's just miscommunication or sometimes me having fun with slight hyperbole. I don't believe I'm better than any person. If anything, my gifts and my lack using them to their full potential makes me feel lesser than most others at times. When it comes down to it though it doesn't bother me. People expect so much of me in either worthless areas or ones I just don't care for. I honestly have no desire to enter into the fields of mathematics or the sciences. I could do 'great' works in those fields if I committed, but no matter how 'great' those works were or how beneficial to the species or planet they could be, I'd find no worth in it and feel like I wasted my time. It's not that I don't appreciate those fields of study and interest, they're just not for me. When I apply myself, I'm also great with combat skills and tactical forecasting. I could be a great military leader that wins wars or prevents potentially dangerous events. The problem their is that I don't see any value in winning wars or achieve tactical peace. In fact, the only use I see in a military is to defend a nation from other stupid nation's military. So many things I could be good at, but none that are a good path for me. In fact the only two things I'm passionate about are entertaining people and helping people out. Those to things in themselves are really just one passion, making people smile. That's all I want to do, make people smile. Is that such a shame. Healing the heart is so much more important than healing the body.
Now that I've gotten that out of the way, here are where my strengths lie:
Leadership- Especially lately, I've been ignoring this side of myself, but if you ask any person that's know my forever, I'm one of those born leader types. I can't really, I have to intentionally fight it to be otherwise. When I was younger, people naturally flocked to me. Heck, even as I got older and tried to fight it, people still indirectly flocked to me. Most the time it's not even that people recognize my leadership or put me in that position, it just happens that way on it's own despite what either party does. Lately I've been purposely not making decisions when in a group and asked to avoid this, but I don't think I can do that any longer. Some people are just born with traits that make them good leaders. For one, no matter where I go, I tend to stand out of the crowd. A curse and a blessing, I assure you. I'm generally outgoing in a sense. I personally don't see myself as outgoing, but at the same time (when I'm being myself), I naturally reach out and make friends with lonely people or just new people all together, I'm not afraid to do crazy activities in public, and I tend to speak my mind despite what others might think. To me that's just normal, but others call it outgoing. I'm also virtually fearless. What I mean by that is that nothing scares my to a point of retreat. I'm not afraid to make a fool of myself in public because I don't care what the average person thinks. I'm also not afraid of defeat or pain. Those two fears are what generally stop any person from doing something, the fear of defeat and the fear of pain. I lack those fears because I know that I will grow through both defeat and pain in a way I couldn't grow without them. I don't seek them out, but I embrace them. I don't get stressed. I don't understand what stress is in the mental or emotional sense. I'm good at making gut decisions and listening to others. I didn't gain these traits, they are inherent.
Artistry- When I talk about being an artist, I don't mean someone with drawing or painting skill. You can have a lot of skill with the arts and not be an artist. An artist is like a muse to both themselves and others around them. They are creative people that can see the world in a way other people can't or won't. Artists never truly stop wondering or thinking. Their minds constantly flow cycling ideas and prospects. As an artist, I tend to create stories and scenes out of emotion or a single thought. I tend think dream meets reality head on kinda way. I'm always making what if scenarios and following them in my head till I can't anymore. I see the world full of wonderful imagery and styles. To me, a book can be as life like as...life. I come up with songs off the top of my head (though I never get to recording them). Heck last month I started writing a musical in the shower that I'll probably never finish. I'm able to see things philosophically and emotionally to understand deeper meanings and bring those meanings to life. Art is life, and life is art.
Science- Scientists aren't just guys in lab coats that study atoms and due genetic experiments. Scientists are people who take the universe in any aspect and try to understand it in every way. They dissect the universe around them, ask questions and search for answers. Scientists and Artists are similar in that they never stop wondering. They ask, not only how something happens, but why it happened as well. I see patterns in places the average person may not. I constantly cross-reference my past experiences to see what relation it has with the present and how I may shape my future. I come up with formulas in my head for daily occurrences. I schedule other people based on their likeness, habits, and rituals. I plan how and when I should eat each day based on the first half hour I'm awake and my morning routine, leaving slack for variable events. I analyze everything in my immediate surroundings for emergency uses in case some drastic or seemingly unexpected should happen. Like I said before, my mind is always working.
As for my strengths that's all I care to share today, and as in any case, you wouldn't fully believe one talking of himself, so I recommend speak to one of my close contacts that have know me forever and see how their opinion differs, as I'm sure they do immensely. Also, I shall leave out my weaknesses as it is never wise to reveal those.
This all leads me to what I wish to do. I want to entertain people. I want to form a production team that reaches many people in many different ways and through many different mediums. I want to make regular videos for a large audience. I want to make dramas, comedies, action scenes, and more. I want to be able to educated people as I entertain them as well on occasion. I want to interview and interact with everyday people and possibly viewers too. I'd like to do a weekly podcast where me and a friend or two just spew words back and forth to each other and make sense out of it. I'd like to do live performances. I wanna go out and do some good and give back as well in the process. Most importantly, I wanna do something that I love and enjoy doing that other people will get enjoyment out of it. Is that so much to ask?