#immatureforever

[cgplenty]

Sometimes I'm just a 5 year old. #dontjudgeme #immatureforever #dutchoven https://www.instagram.com/p/CljSouKO8N9/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[ultrahughjarse]

Much to my wifes exasperation... lol

[ilucastos]

You're only young once, but you can be immature forever. ― Germaine Greer

[3hey-assbutt3]

My first time making an edit!

[glitterymagazinecreation]

'Never stop dreaming of moonbeams and fairy dust, shiny stars and the wonder of the heavens, a happier life and a better world.'

[monkeywriter]

End of the world as I know it...

Been super emotional tonight. Like not more than usual but a built up amount of emotions. Still havent accepted that we are back in California for good I keep thinking we are going back. I dont want to lose AZ and all the memories which can be easy since OS reminds us more of TN then AZ. I dont want to lose it (so I bought a notebook I intend on using to write stuff down from AZ & TN). I am very sad that today was my LAST day going to LL for fun. Tomorrow I am going to Sealife (well today it is Sun now) before I work. My sister still has NO idea if this is her last day. I dont get my check till Thur but as of tomorrow I will be unemployed again and this is freaking me out. I am very very sad. I wanted to stay and I am still upset and not fully realizing it yet that this is it till March. I have been looking for work but I am not as hopeful as I should be about it. I pray Mel can stay and we will have one more with money. If not we are both screwed as our parents cant loan us any more money and we need money by mid March if not sooner. Next week I plan to hopefully be over this stupid cold going on 2 weeks now. Going to play with my new wii games, read books, write, clean, unpack, workout. I cant wait to get back to riding my bike again (gonna have to start over again since its been SO long). But really truly no job. Suddenly this year is reminding me all too familar of 2007 and our fight to get jobs after we quit LL the day before Christmas (in 2006) which was weeks early then going till end of Season cause we hated F&B so much and knew they werent going to keep us.

SIGH. Need to go to bed now. I've been wondering if my mind set is always going to be that of a teenager. Will I ever mature. I dont want to stop reading YA books but its all I can read. Adult books rarely interest me unless they are memoirs. I've read a few fiction books but most i cant get into so I dont see a point in bothering.

Night.