I need to say this.
I just want to explain exactly what I feel for Kenny right now. He's my boyfriend, duh. Everyone practically knows that by now. I've never felt this way before for anyone. I've liked him since middle school, and Clyde would always try to push me, to make me tell Kenny how I felt, but every time Clyde would try, I'd run out, or pretend to do something else. I should've just stood up and rold Kenny sooner than I did. Anyway, I got mad in highschool because he was a player, and I hated bebe the most because she was all over Kenny, and she also broke Clyde's heart numerous times. Anyway, I'd always feel so terrible because he never wanted to touch me or hold me or anything, so one day I told him everything, but he didn't like me back. I ran off again, and Kenny felt terrible to hurt my feelings, so he wanted to try dating. I messed up and ended up letting christophe kiss me. Kenny was so jealous i actually thought he might kill him, and we had this big fight and broke up. I was terrible. It was just not even funny, and I pleaded, I begged, I gave speeches about how i loved him and how sorry I am and we got back together. I was getting distant and having less time woth him though and he kept getting so worried, and now I'm here. And now he's the one that I hardly ever see now. I feel so numb, and when other people touch me i feel empty, like a hug from a friend or something. We only had sex once and it was weeks ago. We only kissed and cuddled a bit after that, but...now I feel like he doesn't...want me anymore or something..I want also want him to touch me like I'm the most precious thing on earth...like I might break any second..I just want to see him more..and I'm afraid that one day, he might die for real and actually never come back ever. Even if he does die, even if i know he is immortal I while ball my eyes out, scream at anyone who comes near me and sit by his grave and talk to him until he comes back. I'm also afraid i might die and never see him again soon. I just want to see him more often and I want him to touch me more, like touch me all over, and make out with me more. I dunno..I may be a needy bastard, but..I dunno..
