couri being without fein is gutting me bc wdym his first teammates are animals who represent fein. axolotl and fish. guppies even. joy and whimsy. essences of things he experiences around and with fein. high pitched laughter giggles and squeaks together regardless of situation. you have my back and i have yours. doesn't need to be uttered out loud because they know. he was alone. he's afraid of something that seems so familiar to him yet not. he's not brave, he's afraid, and what does he have to be brave for? why would he ever need to be brave if he can be a coward in others eyes and hide? why would others thoughts and views on him ever matter if they aren't right? do you miss home couriway? do you miss how it felt to be safe with someone that you could let hold your hearts without doing any harm to them? do you miss your home? you know your house isn't your home because all in all, it will always be missing something no matter how cozy and protected it is. do you miss feinberg, couriway? your home? you're only home when you're with him, and no one else, and when will you notice? will you notice it when you laugh around these people who you've teamed with and for some reason when everyone is there, you will feel that theres a voice and presence thats still missing no matter how hard you try to find out why? will you grow sick with this restlessness that controls your body no matter what? always running and running for reasons you dont know why? running like its the only thing you'll ever know?
do you feel like you fit in the armor you wear? the armor that you occasionally cast aside like you don't know any better? does the hilt of the sword fit the groves and grasp that you hold all your other tools with? does it feel wrong to be fighting without a voice in your ear that calms you?
is this really home to you? or is it a foolish comfort you've created for yourself?