“Okay fair, I kind of walked into that one.” His hands are shaking and he’s pretty sure he’s not in his body. Which is fine better to watch from above than try to tolerate it. “Uh-fuck. Damn it, why-” he should be mad at her. He will be. Later. When he isn’t compelled to spit out the truth like poison. “Shit well-” is he allowed to write it down? Is that an option? Maybe in code so he doesn’t have to look at the words. “Okay-um-okay. He..made-used me as uh-fuck. Yeah. Let’s go with fuck. That’s it. Sure. And of course he couldn’t have me stabbing people so they did this neat thing with the arm and a collar so every time I tried to use it-which I did of course-it would shock me. Not just then. He’d give the code to just about anyone so whenever they were bored they could just set it off. If I’d fall asleep, he’d zap me to keep me awake.
I was primarily his, but he’d...loan me out to others if they wanted. When the higher ranks had these dinner parties, I’d be there as the entertainment. Which was big of course paladin stripped down to less than human. He was mad at me most of the time. I didn’t...really start getting things until he told me you guys were dead. Then I just figured it was better to go along with it. Not that that prevented anything. He’d still be an asshole, but at least I behaved. He-he gave me all these rules and conditions and things that he’d just drill into my head. Like yllmets don’t have wants, don’t get to ask for anything. I don’t have any worth beyond what he deigns to use me for. I guess I was worth keeping around for so long or I’d probably be dead at this point. I was a big...win for him. He did all this work on the-the black paladin and look how it turned out. And it worked. It did. I-I still slip up and Keith’s mom terrifies me and oh yeah if he didn’t want to put up with me, there would be drugs. Generally at the dinner parties and stuff because I don’t know maybe galra are kinky-I mean yeah I’d put money that some of them are. So I wouldn’t...know who or what and I couldn’t really do anything about it and some of that would make me sick as hell. I got boosted with quintessence whenever things got...bad like uh-damage or in danger of dying and no one actually wanted to do anything more about than just use another kind of drug basically. Which like cool it healed shit-didn’t work on anything that had been half healed already but apparently that shit is addictive which was fun going off it cold turkey.”
