In my dreams - Raphayel- 2025
I wasn't good enough, I see it now. The insecurities and doubts now make sense. I lost you, for a long time I thought I was enough, that I was everything for you, but I was wrong.
Looking back now, I understand the lack of effort, love, and care. I didn't love you right, I'm immature and wasn't able to take care of you and your needs properly.
And now you live as a shadow in my dreams, reminding me of everything I'm not, everything I wasn't, and everything couldn't be.
Every night I see you looking down at me, and I can't move, I don't dare to move. I need you closer, I wish for that last kiss. But my body won't let me move.
I don't mind if you hate me, I don't mind if you're moving along. Hurts knowing I wasn't perfect, I wasn't good enough... I'm not good enough.
I can't have you back, flower. I'm not worthy of your love.
So keep living in my dreams, there I can't hurt you.