This is just for Ellecia. But if you follow me and Ellecia as fans of our rp characters, you might find this very interesting too.
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I just kinda want to explain, at least, what I think of the whole Lux and Rachel situation post-Ranarök. This all might not come out right, but I'll try my best.
So let's start with Lux. She (for whichever reason - you can decide why) joined and aligned herself with the humans who went to Jotunheim. They weren't called wildlings until awhile into Ragnarök - due to them finally revealing their true colors, or rather true ways. "Savage" ways.
A little insight: The reason they all pretty much loathe each other is the same reason Asgardians loathe Jotuns and vice versa. It rooted deep into their societies from all the negative rumors and actions (to their society) of the other.
In a sense, being and living with the wildlings, being integrated into their society and culture, Lux has been "raised" by them. Their beliefs and values have been instilled and ingrained into her. She holds much loathing and resentment towards the new rising queen and her people.
And for that reason is why Lux cannot let go of resentment and loathing towards Rachel. For the actions from her people, whether by their own doing or by Rachel's command. For all the rumors - most true - about Rachel and what she's done and is doing. Despite the fact this once was (Or is still is? idk. I'm not fully sure how Lux would really feel.) her best friend, Lux cannot get past all the resentment and loathing ingrained into her.
Rachel is the same, but yet different.
I'm gonna give a bit of backstory here. Basically, to put it simple, Rachel since Loki left her (possibly could be seen as abandoned?) her, she's felt alone.
Somehow near the beginning of Ragnarök, Rachel and Lux lost each other, lost contact with each other, and then it was just Rachel and Loki. (I'm not fully sure about Loki losing contact with Lux, but I'll just assume for the moment, somehow in all the chaos - isn't that ironic - he lost contact with her too.)
Being Rachel, despite losing her friend the midst of all the chaos of Ragnarök, she pushed those feelings aside. The whole part of her that wanted to cry over losing Lux. She pushed it all down, repressed it, knowing that right then was not the time. In fact, she knew she didn't have time. So her and Loki fought together through this hell of Ragnarök - which his help via plans and schemes was incredibly invaluable. What they went through was incredibly rough, yet they toughen up and trudged through it.
But (and I'll need to think this over some) something happened. Something broke the magical bond between Loki and Rachel. He stayed with her for some time after that something or other. But whether by that something that broke the bond or something else, he gradually became darker, twisted. He started to go absolutely mad. (Not the angry kind - though that was really more of a symptom of the cause - but the insane kind.) Somehow he crossed a line.
He tried to hide it at first, denying anything was wrong, even to himself, but eventually it became harder and harder to hide it. He was losing himself, losing to his darker side, his darker tendencies. And Rachel started noticing. She worried. Really she did. If he went mad, what about her? He did have control over her mind. What would happen to her?
Being with Rachel all that time, even (and despite) when she had C-PTSD, she made him a better person. She was his moral compass, one that he kept very close to him. That's why he would still try and protect her even after the breaking of the magical bond. Because of the natural bond they had, the relationship they had, made him feel like better person. Like he wasn't a monster. She made him feel like he wasn't a monster. She had even told him (and it took her awhile to truly convince him she really meant it) that what he was, his true heritage as a Jotun, was nothing to be ashamed of. It was who and what he was. Jotuns weren't beasts or savages or even monsters. They even had some advantages that Asgardians didn't. (Yeah, Rachel likes the cold better than the heat, even though she lives in the desert. So definitely an advantage for her.) She also told (and this she really had a hard time convincing him of) that Jotuns, in her opinion, were beautiful. That she thought his Jotun form was absolutely beautiful. If not more so, than equally beautiful to his normal, Asgardian form.
(By the way, they had that conversation a long time ago, way before Lux came into the picture.)
But, like I said, he was losing it. Rachel tried to help, but it was in vain. Nothing could help him. Eventually, he just gave over to the madness. Before he did though, he released her from his control.
The worst part is, he just left her. Since he had first watch, she went to sleep. When she woke up, it was daytime. And there was no sign of Loki. He was just gone. She waited and waited, but she knew she couldn't stay in the spot any longer. (They were always on the move during Ragnarök.)
She tried to stay close but after another few days, she just gave up. He was gone. And she was alone. She had to move on, leave, continue on fighting in what seemed like a never-ending hell of a war. And she had to do it all alone.
Eventually, she accidentally came across a mixed group. There were some humans, a few Aesir, a elf or two. They were as sick of this war as her. They just wanted everything to go back to the way that it was. They just wanted to go back to their homes. But those two desires were impossible. Their homes either destroyed or in the process of being destroyed. And naturally, nothing would ever be the same. There was no way of going back to the way things were.
And they accepted her. She was alone, she had told them. She hadn't need to say more, her eyes said everything. So they accepted her without question into their group. She was a very good warrior the Aesir and elf/elves noticed. She was also a very good sorcerer. The humans both admired and respected her but also were scared of her - because of her C-PTSD (which she never told anyone), how well of a warrior she was, and, of course, her magic. Probably more so her being very good with magic mixed with the way she acted because of her C-PTSD.
But the thing was, there had been a divide in the group. The Aesir and Elves and then the humans. (Because all the other races in the 9 realms are racist as shit, and always think humans are the bottom of the list.)
The interesting thing is though, Rachel was a catalyst for the two sub-groups to come together. She was still human. The whole group knew that. She could still connect and relate to them. But she was a formidable warrior, something the Aesir would admire and respect. She was also an adept sorcerer, something the elf/elves would admire and respect. This is actually where her path to becoming a queen starts, without her knowing it. She's the one who actually brings them together.
She trains the humans to be better warriors, with the help of the Aesir. She even helps them (both the Aesir and the humans) learn how to work alongside skilled sorcerers like the elf/elves. (And vice versa, since we know how haughty the elves can be.) She instills her values and beliefs onto them. (Which I just had the revelation of why she's such a good moral compass and why her heart is her strength (and her weakness), and that's because her heart is the center of her personality and being.) She suddenly finds herself falling into/taking on the role of their leader, the one to keep them not only together but keeps them fighting, keeps their spirits up. She leads them into fights (which I suppose you could call battles but nothings definite or clear in Ragnarök, especially sides. Ragnarök is not just necessarily a war between all the nine realms. I suppose you could say that - and let me remind you that Loki is the one to start Ragnarök - whatever Loki did causes a societal collapse to happen in multiple societies (though I suppose you could say realms), maybe even all the 9 realms.) and they win. Naturally they lose people, but their group starts getting attention, people start joining the group.
And yada, yada. Next thing you know Rachel's this totally badass warrior and sorcerer. And she's with this huge mass of people from all sorts of different races. Near the end of Ragnarök, they take the land of what was once Asgard, and rebuild it. At first, it's just a crude castle, as if they lived in the medieval age of Earth/Midgard. But then, with all the Aseir's help, the rebuild Asgard to it's former glory. Adding/changing somethings for members of their society who are from different races.
But anyway, after they build their crude castle on the fields of what was once the great shining city of Asgard. (Let me emphasize that. Fields.) They then collectively and fully willingly make her their queen.
To which she makes sure her people have freedom and as much peace as possible (to whatever means necessary - this is where the rumors which are often true come from, her protecting and doing what she believes is right for her people and kingdom). She enforces laws in a fashion similar to America. (Of course, her only actual basis for government.) In fact, she tries to blend a monarchial government and an American form of one. (With a bicameral legislative body and a judicial body somewhat similar to American government. She even blends the whole concept of a monarch with a royal court/privy council with the American political concept of having a executive body, with a president and a cabinet and etc. Like she really thought this one out. (She even made it so that when she dies, the power of her as the monarch is then switched into being a president who is elected, just like in America. She also makes it so their is more power for the people so they fix things when the government starts becoming corrupted and/or too powerful for their own good. Aka like it is right now sort of.)
But outsiders of course sometimes are not gonna see it that way. Like the wildlings. They see an imposing society with an all too quickly rising and all too powerful queen. They also know about all her unsavory deeds that she has done for her people and kingdom. That's where the resentment comes from. Plus the imagined (or well, a first imagined) idea that Rachel's people (and even Rachel herself) think themselves high above the wildlings.
Though this belief leads to the wildlings in a sense acting savagely towards Rachel and her people - which seriously, I need to give them a name as well as their kingdom/now-their-home a name. In turn, Rachel and her people begin to believe and treat the wildlings as savages. To point of the humans of her people seeing all the other humans who have spread out across the realms and different societies adapt to those same societies. In a way, her people - the humans - believe the others have given up their culture - since their society is long gone now along what was once on earth, as even on it was pretty much destroyed. (Though earth is not gone. It's still there, with some humans on it. But it's pretty much like Danger Days. And - very accurately put - looks (and is) post-apocalypse like.)
So the humans population of her people believe that the they are "the last humans". As they try to hold onto their culture(s). (Sorry, have to remember that they're aren't just white people on the planet. They are many, many different cultures on this planet. Even amongst white people, and I suppose other ethnicities and races on Earth.) (Rachel has a hard time dealing with them and their "we're the only ones left" beliefs and idealism, and that they aren't and besides even they too have changed, even her. But yeah, she's still working on that. In fact, she might not ever be able to change that.)
But (now trying to come back to the main point, which is Rachel's view on Lux now er... then. in the future.) whereas Lux keeps that resentment and loathing when it comes to Rachel, Rachel does not. In fact, Rachel does not hold that much loathing and resentment towards any race or people as her people do towards at least the wildlings. She made a new family, yes. But her old family - Lux and Loki - she still holds dearly deep in her heart. She has always loved them. And always will.
So when she sees Lux again - that second gif set I posted - she's in utter shock from the surprise. Her heart starts beating in such a fast, happy rate she doesn't know what to do. She wants to run and hug Lux, keep her close to her as much as she can, until she runs out of any and all excuses (even flimsy ones). Although, a small part of her wants to run and strangle Lux for ever leaving her. But naturally the first wins. (She doesn't run and hug Lux. But she'll try and keep Lux as close as possible. Possibly also the reason she goes (seemingly?) alone with Lux to her home - Lux's home I mean.)
Rachel has nothing against Lux. Just the wildlings as a whole. She actually really loves (and really misses) Lux.
