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My Internet followers.....They don't know the Hell I'm being put through...................

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The delete everything urge is so powerful....... But at the same time, those urges are just small remnants of the past.... I've to remind myself this!!!! Clearing out my Twitter may be a worthwhile investment, though... I am fickle!

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From last year

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Oxi Changes and Ideas

(unrefined babbling warning. It’s going to be redundant because that is how I talk.)

I've been pondering where to go with Oxi. I've felt the story to portray an unflattering picture as opposed to what I know it could be at its best. I've decided to change some aspects of it! It's really not like anyone knows much about my stories anyway, but in the event anyone does—I shall regale.

The Many Layers of 'Doppelganger': My intention after the first couple months after Oxi's initial recreation was for him to be a demon; then to be someone possessed. Shortly after that I decided altogether the demon idea was stupid. I split Oxi into two separate characters again and used that re-redesign to change the story entirely. But how was I to explain to the audience what Doppelganger Is? Doppelganger is his own thing. Not technically an actual doppelganger since that name is just a placeholder, not much alike to the folklore of demons and devils; not a changeling. I don't want the story to feel familiar in some senses, while the tale communicates that of a town, and its scenery just as ours; these characters are in a position that they themselves can't understand; just as the viewer should feel(? I hope).

Doppelganger is most like a parasite in numerous aspects. Birthed into this world by living inside the body of a man as an unwanted guest, and subsequently escaping from the man's optic canal; killing the man in the process, and has no purpose beyond latching itself into the lives of others; benefiting at the other's expense.

Oxi's Housing: For a long time Oxi's family, religion, and housing was incredibly secluded and limited. Intended for Oxi to live similarly to the Amish, as an example. I liked the idea of a secluded nightmare scenario, while also by belief intended to live 'strictly and simply' is enforced. I realized after  an embarrassingly long time that this left for... Many plot holes, and also reinforced visuals to make Oxi look Christian—which, in prior times, he was. To deflect this, I decided for Oxi to remain heavily religious, his actions and thoughts reflecting his faith; but not so strictly. In fact, I hope to be able to lay grounds and establish that while yes, the religion holds many similarities to real life’s myriad of faiths, I’d hope to make it clear that it is more closely a fictional branch-off of any (pretend) religion. I plan to make this discoverable through the character's dialogue and subtle reveal of in-world history. Does any of this mean Oxi isn’t far away from any town? Of course not! I’ve been pondering this; I really do feel as though Oxi and his family have decided to celebrate their religion and make it far more open, far less strict as before, but still the worship takes place in a location in the middle of nowhere near a national park; as that’s where they and the historically founded themselves upon. They want to celebrate and share their unique religious history to the town. They are located miles out—accessible by a dirt road or a hiking trail in the middle of a national park. Oxi’s housing is on the very outskirts of said national park, living on a plain grassy field. They have several buildings on the property, one notably being a farmhouse consisting mostly of livestock; but they do have a decently stellar garden (with the help of a greenhouse) considering the harsh climate they live in. They reside on a cliff leading towards the ocean. Since part of their worship is smoke and flame, it would seem a bit silly to have set up habitations in such a wet and windy environment. But really, it isn’t, the explanation I have entirely made up was that it made the ceremonies far more special when there is the opportunity to do so outside. So much so; in fact, the family organizes and hosts little town get-togethers and little festivals on those days for publicity and celebration.

What the Hell is Oxi’s Religious title: I don’t know.

Oxis’ deal (cont):

The minimum I KNOW is that Oxi is a…Form(?) of preacher(???), tour guide??? and ironically does most of the public speaking…. It’s quite confusing at the moment. Goodbye…… More to say, sorry. Oxi; whilst being generally quiet and unapproachable with his strange gangling appearance, is undeniably gifted with his descriptions. Able to paint both beautiful and awe striking pictures with his words. He’s important! Has an important role that would be hard to fill…….. Is currently hard to fill.

Conclusion:

With the religion being far more open and willing to take in more people, and in doing a lot of public services such as historical tours, catering small parties and inviting public viewings of important ceremonies within their beautiful chapel of sorts, is far more accessible to the towns near them for any one interested in converting or just learning. All this together adds a wonderful amount of drama and pressure into the plot related events! With any form of reputation the leading characters wish to uphold, finding themselves in a truly unexplainable, supernatural position, is definitely the last predicament they’d wish to be in.

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Thinking (in) bouts about Cropscruel... Which is who the blog is named after..... Before getting damage to the brain from the arrow, he was much more considerably a threat. His objective prior to when the story takes place was to just pave a path in blood because "someone has to do it!"- but would still frequently describe himself as being the 'heart of gold' of the group he's associated with. "Mutilating them with the... bits and bobs of decency,". He has an incredibly artistic mind and would put his creatives to use when hunting people down. But, tragically, his reign of terror has come to a jarring halt despite his insistings otherwise; He gets shot in the head with an arrow in the dark of night and is completely oblivious to it. He can not see it in his own reflection. He can not feel it there. It alters how he perceives things in special ways.

He finds some strange sense of artistic beauty in not being able to capture the 12 year old he was paid to maim. The little twerp just seems to be slipping from his fingertips, and it's funny, is it not? His mind is clouded by these increasingly absurd executions for how to capture and...At the very least, hurt this kid. Like, ideas that delve far beyond just mere 'stepping in a trap and having a piano fall on you' kind of stuff.

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.............The Owl House Season 2B and 3 sucked so bad......I can't stop my hate and bitter disappointment...

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I've been trying not to bother anyone with my severe aviation hyperfixation, but earlier this week, when I checked flight radar, there was a blimp heading right for my parent's house. Two things I will have you know: I went down a spontaneous blimp rabbit hole, and my family has an interesting history with blimps and hot air balloons and such of the sort; for our old yard had suffered a hot air balloon crash sometime when I was a kid. I remember waking up and hearing the prolonged sound of the balloon ever so slowly falling towards our home and the visuals of the passengers of the balloon being very frantic. We have also encountered ...A lot of blimps. Almost feels strategic. And the Arcane blimp is really funny.

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People tagging regular Nuclear reactor pictures as "Reactor Meltdown" and "Nuclear Disaster"..... 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢Stopppp ittyytyytttttt.... You know not if which you speak.....Run along now.