#inanimate alter

[flinnteresting]

Sometimes being objectkin or an object alter/headmate/etc is being in awe of being able to move. The joy of the freedom it brings you to think and speak and be heard. Other times it's the opposite. Why do I have this body? It's so different. Why do I have thoughts? They're so noisy. Why do I have emotions? They're so messy.

[sleepycardboard]

i realised i really like heavy drums in music. i was walking outside- i’m not feeling fully boxkin right now. sometimes i’m more of a boy wearing cardboard armour - the kind you’d wear in the latest create update, or how a kid would wear it if he was pretending to be a knight.

other times i’m just a boy wearing a cardboard box, or paper bag like mono from little nightmares 2. sometimes it’s just a folded paper hat made of card. it all depends on how frightened i feel. the more i am, the more inanimate i start to become.

and this one song came close to its end - “175 months” by dave, and a man jumps on the end of the track to say, “can i, can i go on to put the drums on top of both of those, M?” and this heavy percussion starts beating in, like the sound of slamming into or kicking cardboard 📦

[sleepycardboard]

being conceptkin is really interesting to everyone until you want to make friends but everyone barely takes notice of you, because you’re just a corrugated box in the corner made of cardboard, and yes, while it is affirming, it is also a lonely corner. i may just be a small delivery package, but i have a lot to say, and a lot to offer besides what you ordered - 📦

[flinnteresting]

I kind of want to get a little dollhouse/trinket sized school desk. A mini me.

But we are without income until June. And where would we even put it.