6/15/2021
very busy these days. I have no new friends I've been trying at summer school but it's hard to talk to other people.
I'm going to the beach with James and a few of friends in a week. I hope things all go well.
I want to change again, I want something new. I don't know if I want to dye my hair or get a bunch of piercings. I just want something new. I really just wanna be someone else. I've haven't been feeling all that great about my looks since summer school started. I don't even dress that good either. Like the saying goes, no one is actually comfortable in their own skin. Well at least I know i'm not comfortable.
I think the reason why I've been wanting to change my appearance is because I see this hot pink haired girl at school (plus summer school now too) all the time and I really like her clothes, her bag, her whole vibe, etc. I just want to be like her or at least dress like her but I don't know where to start and if dressing like a indie chick would even look good on me. I feel ugly every time I look in the mirror. I think i'm having an actual identity crisis. I really need help.
