I've learned - or maybe still learning - not to let my emotions take over and run a show nobody was invited too.
But perfection isnt possible & I am trying to honor all parts of myself - so sometimes they show up when not needed or manifest themselves in stubborn tantrums no grown ass woman should have.
I fucks with love heavy and without boundaries on my heart; and the hardest lesson I have had to witness is not everyone can; or will choose to love as hard as I do.
My heart ends up broken when my love is not returned at the same intensity as I give - not knowing why or how to voice my feelings; and rectify the problems in my head and heart.
I withdraw and start writing - cause my journal is the only person who knows all my problems & wont judge me for my breakdowns.
My love language isnt everybodys and I am learning just because I dont feel the love how I expected doesnt mean it ain't there.
I gotta tap into the energy around me and find love in the ways it flows from other people.
And when necessary, spend some time loving on myself cause that love will always be there - never disappoints me - and is free flowing.