I did not have a single boyfriend throughout high school, so I never had any prior experience about relationships when I started college. Me and this guy started talking in the beginning of the school year. He was an ESFJ by the way, I had him take the test. Anyway, we never actually dated but instead had more of a “thing.” This really bothered me because I would overthink what our “thing” was all the time. The fact that I didn’t know what would happen in the future really scared me. I also have a fear of commitment so it was very stressful for me. But a couple months in, our thing ended because he basically told a bunch of people in my building flat out lies about our relationship. I confronted him about it, and he still continued to lie. We haven’t talked in almost two months and I’m still bothered by the fact that we did not have any closure about what happened. We didn’t talk anything out really and all I want is for us to be on ok terms. So out of this experience I learned that I really like closure and I like knowing what is going to happen in the future. I’m also very considerate of the other person’s feelings and will do anything to make everything okay even if I’m not the one who did anything wrong if that makes sense. I also learned I keep myself very guarded from others and it takes a lot to become vulnerable to someone. Basically, I need to stop freaking out about the future and just enjoy what is happening right now, and I need to open up to people if I want other people to open up to me.
