"but why?" I asked. "I'm still traumatized" she replied, "I don't want to hurt you again". Hey, I know that line! She said that exact same thing last year, and I just replied "don't worry" and proceeds to hurt myself lol. But the fact that she actually thinks like that, having the thought of her actions might affect my feelings, just proves that she's more matured than me. Which in turn makes me love her even more. She's one of a kind. It seems that she really cared about whom she loved but just doesn't know how to show them fully. Though I'll put myself to blame on our last break up because of me stupidly being irrational thus doing stupid things.
What we are chasing for needs alot of maturity, and from the look of things, she's not ready yet. So do I, yep, I'm not ready too, though being an impatient guy I am, I really want us to declare it as fast as possible.
Patience, I said to myself, patience is virtue. "Greed, though how seducing it might be, is the most potent destructor for this relationship. And remember that you'll let go of things as fast as you get a hold of it. Let's just give it a few weeks, months preferably, and you'll thank yourself for it." I said to myself
I can't afford to lose her again. Never. Though I'm not ready now, I will be ready later. But right now, I just need to give it some time....