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I’m home sick
peep da rainbow
HOW I GOT LOST:
after reviewing my videos and pictures I now know how the hell I managed to get lost
I TURNED WAAAAY TO EARLY
flat out simple shit
when coming down the cliff there’s an area with redddish orange rocks (kinda reminded me of Sedona n made me miss home 2 seconds) there’s a super small trail that leads you to the other side where the main trail is
I went down to soon before the small trail and started climbing down
Half way down I started to realize how much muddier the trail had gotten
I didn’t see my hunger games obstacle course n there definitely was no brazzzy ass view of Hawaii
The muddy stairs I had to crawl up were now just a question in my mind “did I crawl up mud or ???”
At this moment I realized I was completely LOST
I spun in a circle 3 times in disbelief on how I managed to get lost
and when I say lost I mean L O S T
Fucking L O S T
I didn’t want to call anyone (what could that do, right??) so after crying (oh ya. you bet your ass i fucking cried) I started climping up.
Going down wasn’t an option either. going down felt like I going all the way to the right then when I tried to renavigate myself and head back down but I felt like I was walking in circles nothing looked the same (I hope that sentence confused the fuck outta you because ya that’s how I felt trying to get out of that fucking forest)
what I did know was going up was my only option because shoot for the moon (aka the sun n the sky pero you get what I mean) for a while I didn’t see blue skies...just tall tall tall trees, broken branches, and lots of BUGS
now now now I’m not about to get all “omg ew bugs” cause that wasn’t the issue. bugs aren’t anything to fear (except roaches!!!! those fuckers are XXX) i was getting BIT the fuckkkkk UPPP. I low key look like I have a small breakout of chickenpox!!
I counted my bites n I stopped at 24 with a few more left on the back of my legs and arms
ok ok ok this getting long anyways!!!!! after letting everything sink in (even myself into the mud) I called my roommate Brandon.
He called our friend Emilio and told him the 411 which resulted in Emilio calling 911 once they found out which trail I decided to try n conquer they realized how badly I was lost
I didn’t know the trail I was on was considered somewhat deadly.
I didn’t know how far up i ACTUALLY went
Basically I didn’t know how much danger I was in till I called and told my friends where I was and what happened
Emilio kept telling me over n over how I’d be ok n I’d be totally fine but I literally couldn’t stop crying. My whole body went into a shock and I was shaking at this point
My body was stuck
I couldn’t move
My lungs got tight and I kept my arms were getting tingly
My brain wasn’t getting enough oxygen because I was hyperventilating so fast and really hard
I kept repeating to myself “no, no, no” and crying
my panic attack last about 5 minutes // the longest 5 minutes of my life
I took a really hard look around and thought “OK. I NEED TO LEAVE”
something I’ve somewhat recently learned is that you (we) as people/humans/whatever can remove ourselves from ANY situation // literally you can get up and walk/run/drive/Uber/crawl/fight/swim whatever it may be to get yourself out of whatever situation you’re in
I knew I could remove myself from the situation of being lost // so I did
I finally made my way back to the wall of mud I had just slid down, looked for every possible rock/vine/branch to grab onto and started to make my way up
Before grabbing ANYTHING I had to check how strong it was. some of the vines ripped right off and some held my entire weight. I’ve never been rock climbing but now I can say I have because this is basically fucking it, right??????
Climbing up involved me using my knees, arms/elbows, and hands/NAILS. i literally used my long ass acrylics to DIG holes into the wall so I could make my next move on where to put my knees. My nails were my personal shovels at this point and were helping me get up
Now....at one point...uhhhhhh..... iddddk iddddk idkkkkk.... I’m gonna briefly go over this part cause it really scared me and I thought I died for two seconds
I made it over the muddy wall and started crawling up to what I thought was the trail again. I call Emilio n tell him
“I’m Gucci. I’m ok. I’m going back to the trail!!”
W R O N G
as I hung up and turned around to grab the next vine and make my way up... the vine snaps and i feel myself going backwards
I shut my eyes not realizing what the fuck just happened but bracing myself for whatever the fuck I was going to hit
I HIT A TREE
I fell back maybe 3 feet and slammed into a tree
My whole body at this point is giving up on me. It had been almost 2 hours of being lost and I was ready to give in.
I almost had 3 major panic attacks on this trip but instead they were small reasonable anxiety attacks. I mean...how can you not panic in the forest when you’re 2 hours deep w a 38% phone n low low low water.
I felt a panic attack growing but slammed it down and pulled myself up and off the tree. I let myself cry for a couple minutes because at this point my knee was now bleeding and burned really bad.
I wiped my face and went back at it. I grabbed another vine checking it’s security and pulling myself up.
After pulling myself up and throwing myself over, i saw the beautiful blue sky and ran for it
I looked around and noticed I was back to the top of the cliff I had just left (the trail cliff)
I noticed where I went wrong on the trail and proceeded to make my way to freedom off the fucking mountain
Now this where I get lost a second time and slipped down a rock onto a cliff hanging off the mountain. I’m not exactly how high but when I called Emilio and told him what happened all i couldn’t get out was
“I just fell onto a cliff and if I move I’m going down hundreds and hundreds of feet”
At this point I thought I was going to break this cliff and fall to my death. I sat there and thought “fuck....all that for.....this”
seconds later I hear two guys in the distance who happen to notice me and lend help (after my dumb ass said no I’m ok)
The second I made it down I wanted to kiss the ground
now I’m home with busted knees, 30 something itchy itchy bites n a wild ass story as to how the fuck I was a bad bitch, owed a hiking trial my Hawaiian friends can’t even do, got lost, and fucking made it out
this hike was wild wild wild I felt like I was in a real life hunger game obstacle course!! crawled over n under those sweet branches n made them my bitch!!!
went on a hike today n got lost for 3 hours enjoy my experience
“keep your eyes to the sky / never glued to your shoes” / small worlds /@larryfisherman / I really felt that today 🍃 #ingtakesHI (at Manoa Falls)
omw to a waterfall 🍃 // the roads here are gnarly 🌊 // holla to ma soul sista @kehlani for accompanying me 💕 #ingtakesHI (at Mānoa, Hawaiʻi)
spending this mellow morning in bed / happy friyay everyone!! / make this Friday sparkle ✨✨✨ #ingtakesHI (at Oahu Life)