#inkandavoice

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Look me in the eyes when I sink inside you. That's right, yes. Good girl. Big stretch, my goodness I'm proud of you.

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I feel normal again. Like I'm who I know I am. Been a long time

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It gets to a point where things are unfixable. It's my fault. I fucked up more and more. I can't deny that. Maybe it's time to just get on with my life. Which is barely there at all. I can't stay locked into the past, look what it got me.

I know you won't believe me, but I'm sorry for all the hassle. I appreciate your time and effort with me. I really do, not that it did anything. And that's not for your lack of trying. You tried. I failed. Time and time again. There's always a place for you in my heart.

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I miss eating with you. Cooking with you. I miss you. I miss talking. I miss holding you. I miss you

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I've lost everything and I can only blame myself.

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I'd do anything for you. Without hesitation.

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I've been told by many that I have a pleasant voice. And I've never really believed it, but I'm gonna fight my self doubt and I'm going to audition for some voice acting roles this Summer. I'm going to take this path and see where it takes me, I've wanted to do this for a while. Wish me luck!

If you have any info on beginner steps, much appreciated 😊

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I finally came out of my shell. The hardest thing I ever done in my entire life. For years, I was so insecure about opening up to people about my interests cause I thought people would judge me or make fun of me. Even people close to me. My friends. My fucking wife. I was worried my wife would judge my interests and hobbies. Literally my entire life with these thoughts. It makes sense, my own grandmother called me an ugly baby. Multiple times during childhood my parents would tell me to shut up about the stuff I talked about too much. And it fucking worked. And all the bullshit they did to me bled into my psyche for my entire fucking life and rooted this awful fear and self hatred of myself. And it came from them. My own family. I inherited hatred of myself from my family. And they put more of it upon me after I was born. No fucking wonder I'm the way I am. Despite trying to work through it, especially considering there's still more things I don't know about that are potentially wrong with me.

And very recently, like the other day, I finally broke that down, with a lot of help. And I'm ready to share everything. Idc anymore. Fuck judgement, and fuck anybody who don't like it. I'm tired of hiding it all. I just wish I had someome to share it all with.

All I want to do is share my life with you. I miss you. Nobody else ever stood up to my family like you. And nobody else would ever deem me worthy enough to do it again