#innenkind

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ich will nich das die grosn (unsa grosn) so werdn wie die eltan früha warn. eltan ham imma gesagt “ihr werdet auch mal so werden wie wir” und jetz die grosn woln haus habn so wie eltan ich hab angs

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child abuse cn

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I’m angry at mommy! She shouldn’t have beat me?!

and the other things. i had to carry really heavy things that were very hard to move :( then she started hurting me lots and lots and it was very scary.

i think it would have been better if she hadn’t done it.

but that’s weird to think. what else would she do???

it’s all she ever did to me?! if she hadn’t done that, what else???

[meeresbande]

Made a Chibi of me with the Chibi-Maker :)

I’m a small boy and I don’t have a name yet! I think I’m 5 but might be older, too.

I like playing with friends and outdoors and plushies and colouring and climbing trees and swings and trampolines and spinning in circles (I did that today!!!) and I like to eat cake!

[meeresbande]

I want to make the big ones have more fun. Or, I mean, I can’t *make* them have fun, but then I want to be out and do some fun things!

Is important, because the big ones are too sad if they don’t do fun things or let others out to have fun.

[meeresbande]

mama war früher böse zu uns :’c

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also!!! anarmyofawesome bought us lots of cool vegan sweets and the best of those are marshmallows!!!! and did you know??? You can put them in Cola too!!! Not just hot chocolate!!! It’s very sweet and unhealthy :P also sticky and I like it!!!!

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But I’m tired and so tired now that I want to sleep soon. It doesn’t help trying to stay awake anyway. The more we can sleep the better. But still scared. 

-- Morla

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I don’t know if I’m allowed to sleep on the bed??? But there is no normal bed in the room. Maybe if I sleep on the downstairs bunk. But I’m still scared. 

I don’t know if I can believe the big ones. They say it’s safe now and no one will hurt us. They EVEN say we are allowed to lock the door!!!! They are stupid?! I don’t trust them. They wanted to talk about lamps rather than about important things. And they say such weird things all the time. 

-- Morla