Thoughts Day 1 9/23/2014
Do you ever just sit there and think "Why".....why me, why now, why not her, why am I good enough, why am I the one you pick out of 1000 of girls that look at you everyday and think the same thing I think, the same thing I thought when I first saw you? then I think "shit im just a game" but if im just a game why bother.....things like this go in and out of my mind everyday, day in day out I have things going though my head that I know shouldn't.
your so perfect in my eyes, everything. from the way you smile in your sleep when I put my arm over your chest to the way you look at me when my eyes connect with yours to the way you put your hand on my leg when your driving.
2 months and already feeling I have never felt before overwhelm my body and mind the way water surrounds anything it comes in contact with. like a stone getting tossed into a lake,the water surrounds it a in golfing it.
and the word that is used for this feeling curdles in my mouth like week old milk sitting out in the dry sun. Its a word that most women dream of, its a word iv been longing, craving, Yearning for, this word brings such happiness, such mirth such joy but a word that can bring so much darkness, despair and weeping to any girl that has so long been waiting for someone to fix the heart that she has had broken to many times before. to just give it away one more time could break her if this one so dares to betray her.
Lllllll......Loooo ......fuck.....lovvvv...lov, lovee, love. thats it Love! Oh shit.
Fuck sakes did I.....say it to soon this word that means so much to me, did I tell you this to soon. no, no, I mean it I love