#intense feeling

[nicethingsinuglyhandwriting]

I’m not sure which is worse- intense feeling or the absence of it // Margaret Atwood

[euesworld]

"I have this intense feeling of aeipathy for you, an uncontrollable urge and passion to devour you with my lips.. all over your neck, your body, your face. I just want you so bad that my mouth is watering just thinking about you, get over here now.."

You are a sexy beauty and I am the sexiest beast that you know, haha - eUë

[charlie-minion]

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December 9: Describe the last time you were surprised by the intensity of a feeling you had about something, or were surprised at how strongly you reacted to something you thought wouldn’t be a big deal.

I’m gonna talk about something that happened to me recently. I had an important event for grad school and was extremely tense about it. It was a mock presentation where I had to explain the first 4 chapters of my thesis in front of a jury of 4 experts and all the other grad students. I’ve previously said that I hate presentations. I was, understandably, very anxious about the whole thing, so I started to rehearse for the presentation many days before the due date. I probably practiced more than 20 times to make sure I could explain things and manage the time properly.

The first time I practiced, I was a mess. However, after the 20th time, I looked confident and made zero mistakes. That’s why the day of the event, I was nervous but I also knew I could do it. When my presentation started, I was in control. I showed no hesitation and proved I knew what I was talking about. Something changed in the middle of the presentation, though. I have no freaking clue what happened, but I started to freak out. The feelings were very intense and I couldn’t understand why, since you’re supposed to be nervous at the beginning and calm down little by little as you speak. In my case, I started to get more and more anxious the more I spoke.

I didn’t forget anything of what I had to explain. I managed to finish but spoke so fast that I took shorter than I was supposed to. I started sweating a lot, A LOT, and my voice started to break a few times. I didn’t feel like crying, but I know my voice sounded like that two or three times. I was in control, but not entirely. It was awful!

Fortunately, I received a lot of positive feedback. None of the experts questioned any of the important things I explained about my thesis, so I can call that a win. The only thing they said was I should “manage my anxiety better”. I’ve gotten extremely nervous before, but I’ve always done a great job while presenting. Actually, I did a good job this time because my mind kept going and I kept explaining, but my body had an extreme reaction: the sweating, the breaking of my voice. That certainly surprised the hell out of me! I hope I can get a grip when I have the real presentation that will determine whether my master’s thesis is approved or not.  

[bookaddictiion]

I'm not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[fleshcostume]

I have this weird as fuck feeling that I need to stay in my hometown this summer, like a tug in my gut, knock me off my feet, borderline magnetic pull. And every other time I've ignored my gut feelings, it's been obvious I should have trusted it, and it's making me nervous to think that I honestly get the shakes when I think about how strong this feeling is. And there are so few people in my life who understand this feeling, and how scary it is, how brilliant it is. It's so fucking glorious and terrifying. I don't know what to do.

[leopoldetbonaparte]

Having experienced both, I am not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.

Margaret Atwood  

[promptsidestory]

Having experienced both, I am not sure which is worse: intense feeling, or the absence of it.

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[arychestwrotethis]