HE FUCKED UP. AGAIN. Perhaps for the last time, otherwise why would Will be avoiding him like the plague ? He knew the moment he had opened his mouth and confessed how he truly felt for the other, he had made a mistake, not because he finally got the courage to voice what he had been feeling for years, but because he had been late. Mike had always been a smart person, and yet, how stupid of him to think he’d still have a chance, that the other was still waiting for him. Really, it was foolish to believe such thing when truth to be told, Mike didn’t even think he was worth the wait.
And now it’s been four days since the last time he even saw the other, a record for the both of them, well, leaving aside when the Byers moved to Lenora a couple of years prior, but that didn’t matter, not now.
❝ Will, just stop for a second. ❞ He almost, just almost had to ambush Will outside his dorm room to manage to talk to him, well, at least he hoped he’d get to talk to him, but with how things were going, he wasn’t that sure. ❝ Can you stop avoiding me for a fucking second. ❞ There was an edge to his tone, a desperate one. And yet, the slightest hint of relief crossed his gaze when Will didn’t just walk away, at least that was something, right ? However he still wasn’t looking at him, but after four days of radio silence, that wasn’t the worst, and perhaps that was why Mike kept talking. ❝ Look, I know I fucked up. ❞ A pause. A sharp intake of breath, fists clenching to the point of fingernails digging against his palms.
❝ Can you at least look at me ? ❞ A whispered request. He was trying so hard to hold it in, but with each passing second he felt himself coming undone by the seam, barely able to keep in all in, and it was only a matter of time before he was going to snap and crumble down. Except he didn’t think it was going to happen that fast, the moment Will turned around and Mike’s dark hues met with hazel ones, he felt it, the ache in his chest getting almost unbearable, and the cracks finally gave in, making everything he had been holding inside spilling out, like a river out of control. ❝ I know it was fucking stupid of me to tell you how I felt. I should have known better, after all it’s been years, and. . . ❞ Ah, if putting everything out in the open didn’t hurt, and Mike found himself blinking once, twice, holding back the unshed tears that were threatening to spill from his eyes. ❝ I assumed something that I shouldn’t have. ❞ The understatement of the century.
❝ And if I knew this is how this would have turned out, I would have kept my mouth shut, hell, I’d turn back time if I could. ❞ Gaze adverting if only for a moment. ❝ But I can’t, and I hate this. I hate that I feel like I lost you again. ❞ But more than anything he hated himself. ❝ Because it’s clear that you don’t feel the same but do you really have to avoid me ? Do you really have to give me the silent treatment ? ❞ One of his hand coming to run through messy curls. ❝ And I feel like I’m going insane here. ❞
@flovraelies ;; will byers gets some angst