#internal_studylog

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4th May 2026 ☕︎

i spent a lot of time crying and panicking and then trying to calm myself down today :') but then i felt guilty for not studying, so i studied as much as i could at night. it isn't great but at least it's better than nothing. goodnight guys (7:30 a.m. 🫪)

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10th May 2026 ☕︎

ugh idk why i don't feel like posting anymore. i really wanted to deactivate my account here yesterday. im having a hard time living in general

(i have a test next sunday and i'm legit tweaking rn)

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January 22, 2026

study time: 7 hours 28 minutes

I really really hate the fact that I'm sleeping so much all of the sudden. i haven't been having the best days because of a little bit of trouble in my family, and to escape feeling sad or crying, I just sleep. but I feel horrible for sleeping so much.

i really need to get a hold of myself

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7th May 2026 ☕︎

well i'm not particularly happy because i couldn't complete a lot of my tasks today. but okay... i'll try again tomorrow. i'll just try to sleep because i feel really sad suddenly.

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18th May 2026 ☕︎

i could have studied more but i thought, "maybe i should be a little happy," and ended up wasting some hours. 😭 today i did my analysis and realized that i really need to revise seriously. so, i focused on math and physics, and then i re solved questions.

and today I had paneer butter masalaaaa it was so delicious that i want to make my entire post about it. definitely the highlight of my month lol. I love paneer i love my indian food yayay

questions solved: 43

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25th April 2026 𖤐

day 25/30

i am so grateful to my math teacher. i used to fear and hate math, but after two years, i feel like im actually looking forward to studying it now. although I know this is just the beginning and things are going to get really difficult, i still want to take on the challenge. i have 3 tests (as far as im aware of) in may that i need to do well in. tomorrow ill be planning a few weeks ahead so that i actually know how tf I'm going to do things

i'm really frustrated with myself for wasting my time and not studying enough because this isn't how i should be preparing. i really need to focus :')

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Introduction !

hey everybody

i created this account to document my life and track my study progress. hopefully I'll be able to motivate someone out there too :')

a little about me:

i'm from India.

i'm a JEE (Joint Entrance Examination) 2027 aspirant (dropper).

i want to get into a (at least decent) college and do my Bachelors of Technology in CSE (or some similar branches, but this would be my top preference)

hobbies : music (i sing and play guitar), reading, coding, watching movies, photography/cinematography (im terrible at it), sometimes writing, sometimes sketching, sky watching, travelling, journaling.

I'll be posting my study progress (and sometimes random stuff) here.

I'm not sure how this journey will unfold but I'm going to try my best and take it one day at a time. If you happen to follow along, I'm grateful. And even if it's just me here, that's okay too.

thank you for reading <3 I hope you're doing amazing !

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#internal_studylog: study related posts

#inboxfragments: messages/questions from you guys

#jeediaries: posts during my preparation of JEE

#marginalnotes.txt: thoughts that run through my mind like little demons or just unnecessary updates :)

#bits of lately: photo dumps !

#myfadedpages: my original posts

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not the best days but

I must survive