Orly? (Or: Wherein Ben's being a jackass again.)
When did that happen, again? If you mean Aloice, she got better almost immediately. And really, despite the fact that I was delirious from blood loss and terrified out of my mind at the time and to some extent wasn’t fully responsible for my actions, that particular event can be read as the ultimate fulfillment of my role as the Prince of Law. Is he troOoly about toOo try and justify murdering one of his co-players? Yep. This is classic Benedict. Popcorn? Honestly. At least I have the modicvm of dignity to accept that the deaths I cavsed, even vnintentionally, are my favlt and no one else's and there is no jvstifying them away. Does he trvly think he can weasel his way ovt of having to at least apologize? Wouldn't surprise me. So...his problem is that he's crazy, right? There’s three parts to a role, remember. Let’s start with the active-passive spectrum. As an active Prince, I was intended to move forward and advance my own interests- to fill the role of player, rather than support. Being prototyped, to the contrary, would have been being forced into that support role, almost explicitly. With the Smoke Knight lined up to replace me, there was a real possibility that my potential to fulfill the active spectrum would have been eliminated at that point. Secondly, there’s my Aspect. Killing Aloice, as it happens, was part of a time loop that stretched across the entirety of my session. Law, as the aspect of restriction, supports the closing of possibilities, and fulfilling said loop is heavily aligned towards that concept. The absolute adherence to that destined series of events practically embodies Law. Lastly, and most importantly, I’m a Prince- and as such, I was to either put an end to Law, or put an end to things through Law. While it’s easy enough to see how ending Aloice’s life (however temporarily) fits that pattern, there’s more than meets the eye. Not only did my actions result in my own end (again, temporarily) but they were part of a larger picture. Remember, there was another me. The one who orchestrated those events, who sent us all up there for the confrontation. In doing so, and fulfilling the loop, I not only [put an end] to two lives, but also to my powers, through the doubletier- both destroying Law and destroying through it. And actively orchestrating a series of events, to enact destruction of and by Law, by deceiving my friends with Sand… in retrospect, it was the perfect storm of role fulfillment as both Prince of Law and Smith of Sand. Probably explains why my coefficient didn’t fall through the floor during the Black King fight. So, four paragraphs of dancing around the point before he even starts to get to trying to full-on justify it. Yep, he's a Prince alright - and he never got the lesson of getting to the damned point already. Perhaps he will vnderstand it when he becomes a Bard. I woOold hope so - all the circles he's dancing in are making me dizzy. Yeah, this is boring. I'm gonna go do something else. But I should probably tell Zero and Aloice that I’m still really, really sorry- like, as sorry as it’s possible to be without actually regretting doing it (because of time stuff and all). Like, that was uncool. If yov do not trvly regret it, then what wovld the point in apologizing be? To try and make amends? This implies that yov regret some aspect of what happened and wish to atone for it - which yov patently deny. To try and gain their forgiveness? Why shovld they give it, if yov do not actually regret what happened? After all, forgiveness mvst be earned; if yov are likely to repeat what yov did...why shovld they forgive yov for the first time? No, yov jvst want to try and repair things - to retvrn them to how they vsed to be, withovt having to pay wergeld for yovr sins. Silly little pvpa. Do yov think life is that easy? Anyway STFU Snaplock nobody cares about you and your weird old timey barbarian alien posse; like you have ground to stand on killingpeopleways. I’m out. Ironically? She has more ground to stand on than you do, Ben. She's at least never killed a co-player - and I can't imagine her ever killing a comrade in anything but self-defense or to defend everyone else. (Yes, this is how terrible you are: the one you consider an amoral barbarian alien has more moral standing than you. Yes, you really suck that much.) Also, "time loop made me do it" is not a "get out of jail free" card, dude. Having a reason doesn't excuse that what you did was henious. It just means that you had no other options than to take the specific actions you took. (Except, you didn't actually. You could've told them what would happen. You could've been honest with them. You never even considered that, did you? If you had to do it over again, I bet you still wouldn't give them any warning.)