finished reading The Miracle Thief today despite being super-mega sleep-deprived!
it was good. i had fun. but it was also bad. the characters, Giselle and Arnulf, deserve better. and the three girlies, Giselle, Juliana, and Ana, they never even met? or interacted together with all three present? and there was nothing about the miracle, St. Catherine's relic, being stolen... i thought it was a historical-religious-mystery but it wasn't. instead i got "have faith" and "don't try to change your fate" Christian schindig, or in other words, "know your place, trash"
well, anyway, i'm rlly just upset the same thing happened again. Juliana didn't get to marry her beloved bec she was a commoner and he was a king-to-be while her damn daughter, already the princess, the second highest position a woman can attain, still didn't get to marry her beloved for he was her knight. jesus christ. so much unhappiness, so much unnecessary unhappiness. like, so what? the king has like another daughter on the way, who cares if she doesn't marry to make a political alliance? that's like, the most her father can do in honor of her mother's sacrifice
for fuck's sake. i hate it when characters and people keep being unhappy, or choose to settle instead of fighting for their dreams, their hopes, their... whatever! there's nothing wrong w wanting a better life than what you've been handed. nothing wrong w trying to change yourself or the world around you for the better. that's literally what makes life better for all of us!
and this story, what it's saying, is not even "be kind to your neighbors". no. it's "accept what fate dished out for you, eat it and be grateful and never want more than you deserve"
eugh. what a horrible fucking message
idk. maybe that's just how i understood the story. it might even come across differently to others. but i just never liked it when people around me would tell me who i should become or how i should feel, whether that's implicit or explicitly stated. it makes me unreasonably angry
but also! really, i ship the princess and her knight! they got such good chemistry! 😊 so i was livid when they didn't end up happy together
and now i gotta read/think of smt else so i can at least sleep happy and satisfied. bec did i mention? i didn't sleep last night. i got like a few hours of sleep in the morning, so forgive me for reacting so harshly to the book 😅