#irl ivory

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life has been hitting me like a bullet train and im so close to tipping over the edge

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my will to live diminishes more every single day but it’s okay because i have my pets and fanfics to keep me alive

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i've never done an allergy test because i've never had any allergies but i'm starting to think i might be allergic to mosquitos..

went to a park on sunday, got bit by one or two mosquitos, but the next day i had like.. 10 new bites scattered around my arms?? 😭

unless it's a delayed reaction or something, idfk. i hate those little blood suckers. if you're gonna take some of my blood at least take me on a date first.

[ivoryfaked]

You are beautiful, Lulu my dear. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise, including yourself. I hope you will see the beauty that makes you uniquely you, and learn to love everything about you that deserves to be loved. Be gentle with yourself while waiting for that day to arrive, alright? It will come. 💐

anon, i dont know what i did to deserve your beautiful kind messages but im going to give you the sloppiest best kiss ever (platonically) along with a billion hugs ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

every time i see you in my inbox my mood instantly lifts!!! i hope you are doing extremely well and that everything is going amazing and just the way you want it to be :)

you are amazing!!!! and wonderful!!! and a million other words that have the same meanings!!! truly, thank you! ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[ivoryfaked]

Ivory dear, you are not alone. There are people in this world who love you and support you no matter what your story is. They will cherish every facet of you, even the broken parts and the darkest corners.

Most importantly, you will learn to love yourself again—including the broken and the darkest parts. They are what makes you, uniquely you, and you will learn to cherish every facet of you again.

Till then, be gentle with yourself as you work through this storm. No one deserve tenderness more than you. 💛

PS: Get well soon. No ice cream till you get better, alright? :)

if im being completely honest, i’ve been like this for a little over a year now due to a very traumatic event. i haven’t gotten help yet because frankly, im terrified. i struggle with constant paranoia and anxiety everyday

i struggle to communicate to others because i dont want to feel like a burden and scare them off.

but anon, thank you so much for these heartfelt messages. they honestly really do help a lot 🩷! also, no ice cream? are you trying to kill me?!

[ivoryfaked]

I’m sorry to hear about what you’re going through. It does feel like it’s taking forever and all for naught, but I promise you, it’s not for nothing. It’s everything.

You are already braver than you think for trying. If you don’t believe anything else that I’m telling you, believe this. Please do allow yourself some grace as you work through this point of your life. You deserve it. Rest when you feel tired and eat good food to keep yourself nourished, go for walks and sleep when you can, watch a sad movie or sing a sad song, you know, as The Beatles once said, to make it better. The good thing is, you are on nobody’s timeline to heal or “get better”. You call the shots on the when. :) And I hope you’ll find the courage someday to speak about your troubles too. Doesn’t necessarily have to be with a professional if that’s too daunting. A friend or someone from your support system is more than enough. Someone is always there to offer you a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on and a hug to fill up that void again when you emerge from the other side. I’m here for you if you need me to.

Be well, Ivory. 💛 I love you, even if I don’t know you. And you best believe that I’m rooting for you.

anon, whoever you are i want to give you a biiiiiiiiggggggg hug. seriously, thank you so much for this, and i really appreciate it. :) 🫶