#irradiated thoughts

[radiation-bird]

I wonder if Crona and Medusa ever had moments where she seemed like a good mom, just for a second. The kind of moments that you look back on and go "Is that the mom i could've had if i wasn't so disappointing?" The kind of moments that you think of at three in the morning when all you want is your mom.

I wonder if she ever dried their tears and cooed at them that it's ok, even if it was just to save face somewhere or keep them loyal. Did she sing them lullabies or read them to sleep when they were an infant?

Would they be jealous of themself, in those small memories, and wonder why she couldn't have just stayed like that? Why it couldn't have been that good always?

Would they make those memories up if they had none? Desperately grasping for crumbs of mother's love, the supposed unconditional love every child should've been graced with.

At least she craddled them with warmth for some time. Even if it was for 9 short months.

[queer-spectre]

cait hcs

just some silly shit to avoid writing my fic lol

She's cut off all her hair many times: and will do it again at any minor inconvenience. Bloodbug in her hair? Not worth saving that strand. It grows faster than she knows what to do with anyways.

Once it gets too uneven she'll begrudging let someone cut it: never a stranger though. The only people she lets cut her hair are Sole, and eventually Piper. Before that she'd just even it out herself and ignore the back.

Favorite color is burnt orange. Favorite food is sugar bombs.

She's allergic to calling people by their actual name. She has a nickname for everyone (ok that one's mostly canon), but hates being called nicknames herself.

When she wakes up in the middle of the night she usually reads "trashy" romance novels. Cait likes scavving in old bookshops in case any of the paperbacks survived, but she tears the covers off so no one can tell what she's got at a glance.

She and Hancock once tried challenging Strong to a drinking contest. It went as expected.

Not really a big animal person, but Dogmeat adores her. She complains that he's gross, but never actually pushes him away.

It takes her a long time to warm up to Preston and Piper especially: they're so....well-meaning that it reads suspiciously to her. She gets used to it eventually, but still rolls her eyes at Minutemen proceedings on principle.

In the same vein, she gets along as easily as she can with Mac and Deacon: Mac because he's Functionally Every Tired Merc ever and that's familiar, and Deacon because he does have an angle, but that angle has nothing to do with her.

She teases sniper!sole endlessly for hanging back, but it sends a thrill up her spine every time an enemy just drops at her feet.

If she's complaining: she's mostly fine. It's when she's totally quiet that there's an actual issue. Goes triple for injuries.

[radiation-bird]

I wonder if Lord Death ever spent long nights thinking about Asura. Maybe wondering how different things could have been if he noticed the signs sooner or tried harder to help him with his fear. What it would've been like if he never created him.

I wonder if he always continued to remember what it felt like to skin him alive, or if he tried to forget the ripping of his son's skin beneath his hands as soon as possible.

I wonder if he ever saw Kid struggling with his ocd and thought, "Please, please, don't be next."

[radiation-bird]

Yknow, thinking about how Asura and Death the Kid are brothers, Lord death really either properly named his first kid then said fuck it you're just death jr. Or Asura named himself. Both options are funny to me

[radiation-bird]

I feel like Death the Kid was the kinda child to sort his toys more than play with them tbh

[radiation-bird]

You think Lord Death ever saw new developments in mental health/new mental disorders being acknowledged as the years went by and thought, "Huh, so that was what was wrong with Asura."

[radiation-bird]

You think Asura saw a plane after getting revived? That would probably be wild for him, cause imagine waking up after 800 years you're flying around, then you just see this loud ass metal thing moving through the sky.

Do you think someone in arachnophobia tried to introduce him to the internet? Cause I think Asura interacting with early 2000's internet would be hilarious, actually.

[radiation-bird]

Yknow, I wonder how Spirit would react to finding out Asura is Lord Death's kid considering how viscerally he reacted to Medusa and Crona.

Cause on one hand, yeah, that's a threat that definitely needed to be dealt with. On the other hand though, did Lord Death try anything before it got to that point?