#is it dissociation?

[brain-n-body-in-disarray]

I don't know what my pain tolerance is like anymore.

Sometimes it feels like I'm a whiney baby, complaining over the smallest thing.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really in pain?

What is my level of pain? Is it a 2 or a 7?

Sometimes I wonder if I should be more in pain that I think I am. Like, that illness is supposed to be really painful, right? It should be more than a minor ache?

Am i making this up? Am I just pretending for attention? I should be bothered by the pain the rest of the time, not just when I'm lying in bed trying to fall asleep. Right?

But paracetamol do absolutely nothing. Codeine and tramadol do barely something. I don't even bother with pain meds nowadays, because what's the point if they don't take the pain away?

Am I dissociating? Is that why I feel like I'm in pain and not at the same time? Why I can't understand what my body is feeling?

This is all very confusing.

[cipheramnesia]

What’s the thing where like, at first I think I’m hungry or something because I feel weird and I can’t figure out what I want so I have some water and stuff. And then it starts to feel like my head is spinning, like I’m dizzy, except suddenly the dizzy spinning sensation contracts in sharply until it feels like my skull is spinning around my brain under my skin.

And after that the dizzy feeling spikes out from my head like it’s trying to reach out of my skull and feel for something, snapping in and out an pulsing and I sort of go blind when it does. But I don’t actually go blind, it’s more like in those moments I just cease to understand optical input, it’s all there but I cannot register meaning. And after a bit more, I can’t figure out what anything means at all and I still feel dizzy for a bit and then it dies down.

What is that?

[amphitritie]

me, staring at my body in the mirror: oh... that’s - me? ok.

[make-cutump-canon]

Yknow one thing that's stayed consistent with my ocs is the ability to travel to other universes and poke around and just observe. Surely this has nothing to do with my neurodivergence whatsoever!

[rainbowhairanddaffodils]

me: I will not put the milk in the cereal cabinet again.

also me: -opens freezer instead of fridge and stares for a sec-

[autmnsun]

just wanted to take a selfie and didn’t recognise myself in the camera so

[catamaranthenonnewtonianfluid]

Does anyone else get the thing when you’re reading sometimes where it feels like you’re floating above your own head?