#is it ocd?

[wallfloweringfemme]

just had a lightbulb moment in the shower, i avoid cleaning, especially my bathroom & kitchen i let them get so dirty and gross like the avoidance is intense++ and ive always just put it down to being “avoidant” and an autistic thing not liking the sensory side of cleaning (especially smells and textures) but i just realised, maybe this is OCD? I’ve always associated contamination OCD with compulsive cleaning but can you have it where you compulsively avoid it because the thought of touching or smelling grossness makes your whole body go NOPE?? Can that be a thing?? Obvs my autism is a part of it but like maybe it’s more than that??

***rest of my blog is nsfw fyi so pls minor dni***

[iitf]

17. Worry

Am i doing enough?

Is this alright?

Am I fine?

I shouldn't think this much?

Its all just questions, huh

Feeling of worry today.

[patheticfruitcake]

It's so deeply unserious to have deeply ingrained intuitional "beliefs" that you logically absolutely reject. Like no you dumbass of course your family doesn't share a very specific quantifiable amount of luck that you stole from by being happy for 2 weeks. That makes zero sense. But also go sob for two hours, nod to every single eye imagery in any room you walk into, and then self-sabotage to even the scales. You know, just in case

[pens-and-paperbacks]

Does anyone else have to theme what they're doing to get any work done? You want to cook? Have to put on a movie involving a lot of cooking. Want to write? Gotta make a playlist for my story and characters. If I don't make this activity into an event then I will not be getting it done, or possibly even started at all.

Also, do you strongly prefer to only watch or read things that are set in the season you're currently in? Or else whatever you're watching feels weird? Maybe not all the time but definitely when there's an episode or scene that focuses on another season?

[unnuminous]

these days when you google misophonia all the results are all like “is misophonia a symptom of [x] disorder?” but there’s absolutely no straight answer to any of those questions 

all these speculative articles are word-for-word ones I wrote in my brain when I was seventeen 10 years ago. i should career pivot and become a scientific researcher just so i can get grants for some clinical studies on misophonia, come on let’s go let’s goooooo

[masenkoha]

Imagine my potential if the crippling anxiety and doubt didn’t get in the way of me making text posts on tumblr dot com

[skully-bones]

i wish i was officially diagnosed w/ whatever the fuck i got