when you never hold any feeling inside
or can’t for that matter, i feel 100% of every emotion ever no restraints, fell asleep in tears; i knew this was going to happen again it all ways happens with us, just the best of estranged bestfriends again. it just breaks me being in love and not being allowed to be in love. he has a girlfriend and daughter, i knew i would only be a little escape to get him back to thinking on track... honestly i knew, just had all these thoughts about us finally being together, hard for a witch when you make them your sacred space/your light/your first spells for someone else /thoughts and words shape the world around you. but if it must be done this way it must be, i have to be happy for him and his own, that is all i can do for him, positive loving energy, wishing the best, safe, happy home for them. we’ll still talk but very rarely and i hope to visit with him, but it’ll be hard to be so close but so far, it always is that with us. that is what makes it worth it, he’s worth it. u.u