Thinking about Serena Pokémon XY anime…
Something something I understand her intense feelings around one person who changed the way you think about yourself and the world around you. With them and their directness there was a distinct sense of where to go and you need that, you want to be like that yourself but you are too scared and too indecisive.
Oh but you want it. You love it about them, and that is one of the primary reasons you remember them and follow them. It fascinates you.
It can never be you.
But maybe it gives you a push. Maybe as you walk alongside them, you find a direction. You are still scared, you are still wary, but you see them and their dream and you wonder if you could look just as happy and alive if you had a dream yourself, if you had a goal. You look for one, you stumble and flounder but you find something that gives you joy and now you understand the person you love so much more. You are no longer fully seeing them as an idol, as someone doing something you could only dream about, but you see them as they are:
Living, breathing, dedicated, free and alive.
you fall once again. For the person this time, not the idea they represented.
You are walking together now, you are not trailing behind them like a tail of a comet, and these journeys together are the best days of your life.
Even in the end, when you both fail.
The both of you will pick yourselves up, and to you the other will be so amazing because they are themselves, and you are you, and it’s beautiful. But you both need to go.
You are equals, you have your own dreams, and your paths are diverging. You leave them with a kiss, and you will not look back beyond reminiscing of fond memories.
They are still beautiful.
So are you.
Anyways that’s really intense for Pokémon anime but yeah all this to say I GET YOU SERENA I LOVE YOU
