Oct 17, 2025
ima be honest, it's kinda nice to have a brain buzz again about a show and ships and all that jazz
my blog is gonna be obnoxious, but I figure, who cares, be cringe, be free
I didnt drag myself through years of burnout and anhedonia for me to not make some noise on my own damn blog about things that make me happy
#jerkface rambles#basically heads up i can and will be blogging very much about tadc as well as whatever ships make my brain buzz#this is the closest I've come to a hyperfixation and I will be damned if I dont let myself go a little insane about it#I am...rusty when it comes to fandoms and tbh I still feel a bit...apprehensive#I feel old and the dynamic has changed from what I'm familiar with#I'm trying to join discord groups and be more social...it's a struggle...but I'm trying!!#yknow idk what I'm even concerned about regarding my blog cause like...I've always just done my own thing here...idk why my brain is stuck#on being self conscious???#my dude...I say talking to myself...you had a point in your life where you were having the time of your life coming up with fish puns#and putting them in college essays....because of La'gaan#I have no regrets I was valid for that#I just....I want to have that unfiltered joy again...doing stupid stuff that makes me happy#im sorta kinda drawing again. it's a pathetic amount but it's...it's something. I'm trying#clawing my way out of my depression pit with whatever I can grasp at#it's nice feeling...hopeful#past few years I've been grabbing at interests like smoke through my fingers#I think that it's gonna be my next big fixation that it's gonna be the thing I can go bonkers go crazy!#but then it never happens#but here I am not even joking I've rewatched tadc episodes probably 30 times...I'm not sick of it#it's so well written and I love the humor and the designs and the intrigue and the mystery!!#I splurged and bought some merch that I'm very happy with#it's just nice to have silly little characters living rent free in my head again#anywho...I should stop rambling here...it's midnight and I need to get some sleep I have work tomorrow#yayyy being a responsible adult#i know it sucks being an adult but guess what I make my big bucks and then I buy little figures and put them in my fancy display case#and I can admire them and NO ONE CAN STOP ME#ok stopping for real now#if you read this far hi hello 👋 I hope you're having a good day