#it's...complicated

[kaxtwenty]

"Maybe this world was created for us to meet."

"The GQuuuuuuX says, 'We'll meet again some day.'"

[ramuterasu]

Only in a timeloop is it possible to be your own mother, sister and nemesis all at once

[brightmalcolm]

I definitely think Malcolm is headed towards a psychotic break in the season finale and I am not okay

[yaboylevi]

I actually agree with your Levi post. I love him so much, but he hasn't really changed much. Still harboring that Zeke grudge 4 years later? And I really hope Isa doesn't just kill him off. I want to see Levi's better qualities shine through now that he's physically weak.

Levi could have so much more to offer to the story, he has connections with a lot of characters, one way or another, and it would be pretty disappointing to see his life end here. But I thought the same about Annie and Ymir and look how it all went, lol.

As for the grudge, I don't think it's unreasonable for him to be deeply angry with Zeke, just like Connie has every reason to, it's just that...it is irrational to think the problem merely lies in Zeke, that revenge will actually mean anything all things considered. I think he realized this as well, because he was indeed willing to cooperate with Zeke, if he was given a good enough reason, so I'll give him that. Just as everyone has realized with dread that the enemy wasn't the titans or a single individual (for example, the shifters), but the whole world, he probably has realized the same... 

So, my opinion is that that promise, that he elaborated all by himself, is "outdated", as defeating Zeke was initially meaningful in RtS arc because they thought he was their main and last enemy and after killing him, they would gain the truth and so their freedom back, making the deaths of everyone worth something. But that's not the case anymore. It has just been weighing him down towards a negative path ー that of senseless brutality and death. It could lead him towards a positive goal if he wanted to: saving lives, obtaining freedom (that's what I thought he was fighting for, at the very least?). He decided to follow Erwin because he thought Erwin was facing towards the future, a better one, that Levi couldn't see. Maybe learning of Erwin's truth (that he was fuelled by and stuck in the past, not really facing towards the future) impacted Levi's vision as well. What has he fought and killed for, all this time? Hence why the lack of direction Isayama mentioned. 

If "killing Zeke > learning the truth > being free > the sacrifices have been worth it" was a line of reasoning that made sense and was positive, now it just doesn't. Becoming free is what makes the suffering worth going through, imo.

Basically, him getting stuck on killing Zeke won't make the deaths of his fallen comrades worth it, because Paradis will still be chained, at the mercy of a world that wants them gone, whether Zeke is alive or not (and assuming Eren's plan needs Zeke alive in order for freedom to be obtained, if Zeke is dead, it's just gonna be worse for Paradis). But lots of interactions Levi had with or in correlation to Erwin led him to act violent or towards despairing situations (Levi's squad's death, serumbowl, rage towards Zeke, his outburst at Historia, anger at Erwin pre-RtS, to name a few), so I'm not that surprised, while mentoring the 104th has been a positive experience for him, I think. That's why I think he should actually take this promise and forget about it, reformulate it, or redirect it towards something more useful for the people who are still alive, himself included.

But maybe now it's too late.

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

maybe comparing it to another may help?

you’d think so, wouldn’t you? but alas, that just makes things more confusing. because it’s a little bit of everything. if i really had to explain it, i’d say it’s a type of perennialism. but not quite perennialism. it’s like a perspectivist take on perennialism. and like i said, there are layers to it. i sometimes joke that i’m a “pagan monotheist” but even that doesn’t really get the point across. 

i believe in an ultimate, impersonal “god.” a god which is simultaneously transcendent and immanent. this god being The Source of everything. it is the Form of the Good. it is the Prime Mover. the All. Brahman. whatever you wanna call it. its name isn’t very important. it is what it is. the source from which existence itself emerges. but i also believe in many “gods” and spirits and angels and demons and all that. as constituent aspects of this one ultimate god. and the universe is a stage for all these forces to play.

but that’s just the surface. grossly oversimplified. there is a lot more to it. a lot more depth. a lot more nuance.

[vithcy]

So I reread one of my fave books recently and I realized one of the main characters decides life is pointless and leaves the classroom right after the teacher makes a bad 'joke' and i find it hilarious

[demondae]

so did you drop jongdae too? ://

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look…no one’s dropped anybody. i’d be lying if i said i didn’t still love him with my entire heart and miss him every day. i’m sure a lot of jd stans feel the same way. i’ve already said how i feel on the situation at a hand and that response can be found here.  

right now i’m still recovering from the fact that we won’t get an apology, which just makes me sad. i don’t blame jongdae for this at all. i blame all of the exo-Ls who threw their morals and “friends” out the window to make sure that he would never hear about just how many people he managed to hurt with his words. i truly believe that jongdae is the type of person who would feel absolutely terrible if he knew just to what extent his words had on the feelings of others and would want to apologize and make sure everyone was okay. he’s a warm and kind-hearted human being, and there were just too many people that prevented him from having that level of human decency.  i’m not mad anymore, just sad. please just realize that a lot of us need time before we feel that things can truly go back to normal. everyone heals at their own pace. 😣😕