There are a lot of things in life that I want. Like most people I want happiness, to find my place and home in this world, to find out who I really am and meant to be, to spend the rest of my life with the mother of my beautiful crazy future munchkins, not be afraid to close my eyes, to keep the ones I love safe, to be my very best for them and especially myself. But the thing I want most in this world right now in this moment constantly as time continues with or without us...is you. You. Not only do I want you, but I need you. And that scares the living hell outta me for obvious reasons. No matter what though I can't stop it and honestly...I don't want to. You scare me in a good way if that makes any sense. It keeps me honest. Like I know no matter what I will always care for you more than you know. That you weren't my first love and I wasn't yours. We both have pasts and we have our own past together now. The radical part is that I don't care. I don't care about what happened in the past. I still feel some of ours because I'm human. It's gonna take time to heal that kind of worry. I don't know a lot but all I know is that I need you in my life. I will continue to fight for you as long as you'll fight for me. I'm sorry it's taking long but if you'll be patient and kind with my heart and mind and soul I'll always be yours as you are mine. Nothing's gonna make that go anyway that feeling of waking up and you being the first thing on my mind and same on round two when I sleep at night. You are always the last thing to leave my eyes before I dream. That means something at least to me. That even through obstacles and hardships someone we can do this together as long as we do it together. I don't want it any other way. I can't put it into simple words how I feel but I'll try for you. I won't stop trying like you won't stop for me. Just please be gentle and kind and patient with me like I know you are being and will continue. Nerves are good. Means that this means a lot and even though it's hard it's gonna make it that much better. Put a little faith back on me please. Together we can as long as we believe and believe in each other. With us anything is possible. I love you.
