Gepard is a Silvermane so he must necessarily see corpses, horrors every day, every day n every day, like, he spends 6/7 days of the week on the front so he spends his life seeing dead people n things like that so I was wondering l: Geppie can't be sane, it's not possible ?? Even the most imperturbable woman or man cannot stay sane while living this kind of thing all the time, in my opinion he must have periods of acute depression and lots of nightmares n sleep paralysis, stuff like that idk n he hides it or takes loads of antidepressants
What dya think about it
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ur right ur right like no way gepard is 100% ok. i think he like is very fucked up by all hes experienced and he only seems to have it all together cuz like. its how he copes. he avoids the reality of what hes experienced by putting himself entirely into being the captain and not really acting or living much for himself. i imagine that like. he feels he cant fall apart or be impacted by The Horrors cuz hes The shield of belobog. so he puts himself entirely into that protective role both to ignore his own traumas and justify some of what hes experienced. especially in terms of any time he would doubt cocolia or what they were doing like. he was absolutely dodging the cognitive dissonance by just putting himself into being captain and following orders 'for the greater good'
i hc that outside of his job hes basically a mess. a shell of a man. he cant be outside of his job/title much because he cant sleep at night and he gets stuck in his own head. he struggles with taking care of himself or really doing anything for himself
