Come ooooonnnnn
Today I was watching tiktok and I stumbled on a video that was an answer to a question. “why do lesbians fall in love so quickly”
well, the explanation was clear. Women express their emotions. Men do not. Women are taught not to express themselves so quickly because we might scare guys off... and its a turn off to them to be so fast. However, women LOVE it. They want those words of affirmation. They WANT it. Girls love hearing how beautiful they are. EVEN when they’re straight.
I can’t even count the amount of times that I told my sons dad how I felt about something and I was told that I was being too emotional. I was being “extra.” I just wanna be myself.
I wanna sit in the car and belt out 2000s R&B/Pop songs. I want to hug you and feel like I can never be close enough. I want to have road trips that involve going down the highway with the windows down with a set “roadtrip” playlist. I want to go to festivals and events together, dancing with you and having the best time of our lives. Wake up every morning with you, play music and just I wanna lay on the couch, cuddled with you and talk about nonsense all the way up to real context about serious things we believe in. If you play video games, help you out with strategies, or even just watch and cheer you on. Cook in my underwear in the morning.. make you your favorite stuff to eat... learn to cook things the way you like. Bake sweets that are as sweet as you. Never EVER let you feel like you’re less than, and you are always loved. I just wanna TAKE CARE OF YOU.
Damn. These are some qualities I haven’t been able to express with a man. Most men, don’t want to listen to ANY 2000′s music. Either its not within their taste of music (I don’t really listen to rap like that) or its “too old” .... like if I wanna scream Britney Spears “Womanizer” or “Toxic” FUCK YOUUUUUUU to the highest degree man. I haven’t had the chance to go to EDC or Ultra ... or any of those types. The closest I think I’ve been to EDC is a paint party that I went to with a friend of mine. Mind you, that event was for girls <3 Some things I have come to realize, I’ve been so worried about everyone else, that I haven’t figured out what makes me happy. The last paragraph... had me smiling. This is why I know I’ve been living the wrong life.
