June 9, 2016 9:40PM
Life is funny, isn’t it?
When you’re single, you feel how ‘alone’ you really are. You envy every couple you see in all places you go to. You can’t help but wish that you also have someone to accompany you and make you feel all these “cliché” love giddy feelings (again). You spend your days daydreaming—wondering— when would someone actually take the time to know every inch and fiber of your being. Someone who would let you feel that even your flaws are loved. For these are what complete you or better yet, make you truly beautiful. Someone who would love to explore you. And only you.
It’s funny. One day you’re daydreaming all that and the next thing you know, someone out there who’s actually in front you, is willing and ready to risk everything for you just cause…. He thinks and knows you’re worth it. (‘I know you’re worth it. And if ever I’ll have you, I wouldn’t go looking for someone better because I already have the best. :)“ -i.v.)
You know the feeling of getting to know someone for the first time all over again? This is supposed to excites you but this time around, for some reason, it doesn’t. And it all boils down to one heavy realization: you’ve been broken and terribly hurt in the past.
Just the thought of getting to the getting-to-know stage terrifies you. You’re scared of the idea—heck, you’re not even sure if you’re ready to let someone explore every inch of you. You’re scared of giving your trust to someone new because you know there’s a possibility that he can destroy you. It’s like giving someone a gun with a bullet pointing right at you and giving him your trust that he wouldn’t pull the trigger. These and the in-betweens just terrify you in no words could possibly explain.
This is when I realized how I’ve been so scared of new beginnings. How you leaving me continues to impact my very own existence.
They say you're just one chapter from my book. And that I should go on and move on to the next one. I say— hey, he sure is 'just' a one chapter but if given the chance to redo any chapter in my book, it would definitely be this one.
And ohhhh how I wouldn't get tired of reviving the moments in it by rereading all over again, you, my favorite chapter.
Chapter 21—"Hi!"