like getting gaslighted for my reaction to your damage and you not understanding how you were making me feel was the absolute worst feeling.. i wish you would had just told me the truth instead of making up lies and lying to me about your feelings. it was manipulation and mental abuse and it really did drive me crazy.. when you were talking to me as if nothing was happening and calling it a break while you slept with him on call all that time it was so hard for me to understand. you always told me we could talk about anything, and we did. and i could tell you loved him more.. but how fast you threw me away and stopped caring about me hurt so bad.. after everything, i can’t bring myself to understand how you changed up so fast. i don’t think the way you did things is ever gonna stop hurting me, i know i cant love anybody as much as i loved you...