May 22
Everything is so loud. Yet so numb at the same time. Too much yet too little. It's disorienting. I swear it's driving me insane. If I aren't already. Our mind is so foggy and unfocused. It hurts. It doesn't. It feels like nothing. And that's what makes it hurt. Our mind is crossing over itself to try and explain this. I don't know if it's helping. I don't care at this point. I need to get this out. Everything is so loud. So why can't I hear anything properly. It hurts to think and it hurts to not think. I wish I could disappear. Words are losing meaning. I should just try to calm down. To focus. Ugh.
