I have a terrible eating disorder that i am trying to manage but sometimes i go out to lunch w my grandma and im like ooo yummy eat a lotta food (cause my eating disorder is fully compulsive now i want to eat food i cant) because we go to places i like and i eat food i really like (also rare as an autistic person who has texture issues as fuck). but then we're there and even though i have told her multiple times it makes me feel crazy, shes always like "Wow you are so hungry! you can just eat so much" LIKE STOP. STOP. STOP. YOU ARE MAKING ME WANT TO NEVER EAT AGAIN. AND I DESPERATELY NEED TO GAIN WEIGHT. Like i am actually eating in front of you (rare , i also dont like eating in front of people generally hahaha) And you're pointing it out LOUDLY to everyone in this establishment how much im eating and that's sooo much bro i want to die
