#itslianne

[itslianne]

Finally giving her the same energy she gives me 🥱✨ As Queen Blair Waldorf said herself; "I'm not a stop along the way, I'm a destination. 💅"

[itslianne]

I have always tried to be the understanding friend, but she's proven time & time again that she'd put more effort with her other friends over me. It completely sucks that I feel like I am not enough to be given the same amount of effort she'd give to her other friends. At this point, I don't even know why I am staying in this one-sided friendship. Is this even worth it anymore?

[itslianne]

🔕

I am done 😊

Since you have been a shitty friend lately...

Appreciate my absence 😄

[itslianne]

You know what hurts the most is when you need your friend to be there and they're not. I am just completely done at this point. There are only so many times you can forgive someone *sigh*. At least I got to talk to my H.S bestfriend though.. Just happy she had the time to listen to me even though she had OT work..

[itslianne]

My mother thinks I won't retaliate if she hurts me hahaha well she's wrong 🙃 If she's willing to hurt her own daughter well I will definitely hurt her back.

[itslianne]

Out of all the things that piss me off is we had a plan, and understanding then this is the nth time she does this shit to me. And yes, I am still pissed with what she had done to me previously. Honestly, if I wasn't a civil and patient person, she would have heard more than an ear full from me. Ugh. Rant over.

[itslianne]

I don't want to say anything anymore because at this point I am so over it. If she wanted to she would and it's so obvious now she's just making excuses. Just complete disappointment.

[itslianne]

I'm back?

Twitter is down and I haven't posted here in so long. So many things have happened. I have lost so many things lately, I lost a friend, and I got a job and resigned from the job, but despite that, there were little pockets of happiness this year too; I got to meet up with one of my close friends during a family trip in Japan and I was so happy to have hung out with her longer cause last 2019 we only had dinner. She didn't know how much I needed to hang out with her because I was getting tired of everything. I just wanted to get away. It was fun and after the vacation, I thought I was starting to feel okay and then the friendship heartbreak happened. I don't know if it will ever be the same. I wanted to see another person that I also considered a close friend because I hadn't seen her since 2019 as well. I initiated for us to meet and watch a movie because we haven't done that in a long time. I set up the date and we settled on it and then after a couple of days I messaged her that I have so much to talk about when we meet up and then she messaged me that she does not have the budget to go out anymore because she bought Christmas gifts. I would have understood if she told me from the start but it just made me feel like she didn't care about me or she just simply didn't want to see me at all. She apologized and I am trying to let it go but it still hurts. This made me question if she ever wanted to meet up at all. The sad part and kicker is I told her that I do not want to feel like some second option anymore which one of my other friends has done to me so many times too. In general, whether it is my family or friends, I have so much trust and emotional issues. This is why I will not have the same level of trust that I used to have with this friend. Saying sorry is not an automatic out after hurting someone, not unless this person is saying it along with action. Anyway, I have been droning for too long. Thanks for listening to my ted talk...